I love that saying, its simple, all-encompassing and most of all very true.

Since I've acknowledged that I have MD, and connected with the idea that I am not a single/ individual anomaly with this condition. I have begun to approach my life very differently.

For the past year, I've been traveling the world (mostly Europe), learning new languages (I am of immigrant background originally so I speak several languages already) and challenging myself to do new and different things.…

I've never been myself. I've always been whoever was the main character of my DD. I don't think I ever developed a stable personality and now that I'm losing my ability to DD I am constantly having to re-evaluate  who I am. I feel like I lost myself along with my daydreams.  I don't know how to act anymore. I don't know how to dress anymore. I don't know who I am and I hate it. 

I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist about this, but I don't see her for an entire month. I wish I'd never…

Part 4 is here!

BOYS

This is something a little more recent. I think one of my good friends might like me. Now I need to…

Hello~ The name's Annie and I'm just gonna write a bit about myself here ^_^.

I've had this...MDD ever since I can remember, around my toddler years I think, maybe 4 or 5. The most horrible thing about it is that not only do I just completely enter a world of my own, but I don't even realize what I'm doing until I snap out of it. When I daydream, I start making a bunch of weird facial expressions and start clenching my hands until they start shaking- at least, that's what I'm…

I started controlling it about a month ago. When I stopped daydreaming I hit this brick wall where all of these relevant facts about my real life were suddenly apparent. I have wasted more than half of my waking life in a fantasy world and it is too embarrassing to tell anyone so I am completely alone in fixing this problem. I have nothing to show for at age 23 and now I'm left to scramble around and pick up the pieces of my life that I let fall apart. Every wasted opportunity, every…

I'd really appreciate if someone listened. No one ever listens to me.



Lately everythings so messed up. i dont know.



My parents bother me SO MUCH. well, my mom. Lately, everything she does annoys me. She treats me like a baby, always talks in stupid voices to make me laugh but its not funny. I hate it, i really do. sometimes ill say like "can you please stop treating me like im 5? its so annoying. treat me like im an adult please." and she'll say like "OHHHHHH…

I hate being with kids my age. I feel so different from them. Whenever there are group projects, I get upset because I rather be alone. I don’t want to hang out with my friends because its honestly boring. There is nothing wrong with them, its me. I think. But honestly, I have a best friend, he just doesn’t exist to normal people. In fact, I do have a group of friends, they just don’t exist to normal people. I also have a family, I love them very much and we have some crazy…

Part 3 begins...

FRIENDS…

Well, I stop coming in WMN because I am addicted to the internet but it does not help. I use as much time on the net anyway. So better be there where I can speak about what is realy the problem than using hours to read about realy stupid things.

I am not DD so much now. My DD are on "replay mode", that mean I got back to situations I have immagine monts or year ago.

I am stil going to my concelor but we most of the time do not speak about DD. We speak about me dealing with real…

I guess this is just a rant.

My doctor put me on Abilify to stop my daydreams or delusions as she calls them. I hate it. My head feels so empty. I can't think at all. I miss my world and I know that I shouldn't want it so bad, but I do.  If I don't have my world, I don't have a life. I don't have real friends. I don't have the freedom to go out and do things like I do in my daydreams. Without my daydreams, my depression has gotten so much worse. I just feel empty.

I can't tell…

It seems when i'm in a good mood, those are hardest times to stop MDing.  When i'm in a bad mood, i usually feel like focusing my mind on something else.  When are the worst times for you?

Today during my lunch break I walked through a crowd of people and spotted one well dressed gentlemen very clearly talking to himself. Mimicking facial expressions etc while he was walking along....it really mad me feel better.

I thought well at least I am clearly not alone and I am not MDing now so whatever attention he gets from people around us, at least it's diverted away from me.

Has anyone caught someone else random stranger or someone you know blatantly MDing?

I moved into a new place today and I share a house with several roomates. I think this move will help with my MD greatly, at least along the lines of decreasing the ability for me to actively indulge in MD. What I mean by this is purposefully letting my self indulge in a trigger. The way my new room is set up, I cannot play my music at night and do my pacing/hoping thing without gaining unwanted attention.  It is also summer, so I think I will take the opportunity to  avoid watching tv…

Hey, I was observing my daydreams and I've noticed a pattern. A lot of my daydreams include characters from books or tv shows that I feel intensely sorry for. They are usually victims of some sort and I daydream about enpowering them. My recent character that I daydream is about an adopted girl that had made many sacrifices for her family. She's a very kind-hearted, selfless girl but her foster family always mistreats her. They treat her differently from their biological kids. It's pretty…

Yesterday, I had a baffling encounter, it was supposed to be part job interview/ part information interview except the woman sitting across the boardroom table from me was either deeply inept or very stoned (or both?). It shocked me to the core because I am a lot more qualified than she is and yet not only was she patronizing, but she was literally making annoying childish whining sounds as I tried to ask her basic questions about the company. 

I felt like I was being…

Yesterday, I had a baffling encounter, it was supposed to be part job interview/ part information interview except the woman sitting across the boardroom table from me was either deeply inept or very stoned (or both?). It shocked me to the core because I am a lot more qualified than she is and yet not only was she patronizing, but she was literally making annoying childish whining sounds as I tried to ask her basic questions about the company. 

I felt like I was being…

Part 2 starts now:

BROKEN…

I'm a hungarian girl, who daydreams a lot. And when I say a lot, I mean all the time. I'm doing it since I was eight years old, I can't remember exactly. It's not about just imagining myself as successful, beautiful, or as a movie star... I have different characters representing me (various gender even), and I also have at least fifty more... with personalities, and unique stories. I created a complex world system, with dimensions, timelines and histories. 

It would be great if me and…