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How far addiction takes you

I jumped into MD, without analyzing what was actually wrong with me first. It started in the late 90's when I was only 12. I was so young and inexperienced, I wasn't aware of what harm it can do. I'm now informed that I may have Asperger syndrome, but back then I hadn't a clue. I had trouble reading emotions and understanding people's body language; what they meant in their attitudes. I always believed every cloud has a silver lining. I didn't take their hints and comments personally…

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Added by Jessica Ballantyne on February 27, 2021 at 9:00am — No Comments

I am afraid of my future

Ben genç bir gencim ve hayal kurmayı bırakamıyorum. burada yazılan hikayeler beni çok korkutuyor. geleceğim beni çok endişelendiriyor, bu konuları kız kardeşime açtım ama o hiçbir şey yapmadığı için buraya geliyorum umarım bana yardımcı olur ...

Added by abcde abcde on February 27, 2021 at 5:21am — 1 Comment

A fresh start and introduction

Hey i'm Ava, I'm turning 18 this year and i believe I have been suffering from MaDD for about 6 years but looking back further I can see some early instances that were most likely of a MaDD nature.

MaDD has affected me in a way i've never thought anything could. I think I only truly understood the extent of this illness when I was 13/14 and basically failing school due to not being able to focus for 10 minutes without falling into a daydream. From age 15/16? onwards i have been able…

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Added by Ava on February 25, 2021 at 10:27am — No Comments

Getting a grip on reality

I'm 23 years old (and it horrifies me). For as long as I can remember i had an overactive imagination. I don'tknow when exactly i started using it as a way to cope with sadness, anger or boredom. Long story short, at 18 i started actually taking responsibility for my life. It changed my view on myself and led to some realisations. Among other things i understood that i spend waay to much time in imaginary worlds. It is unproductive. It damages my life and my relationship with other people. So i… Continue

Added by Varya on February 20, 2021 at 2:38pm — 9 Comments

Thoughts about me wasting my time.

So in reality i am surrounded by 4 walls with no attention or recognition whatsover but then my daydreams act as some portal to an another world where I recieve attention,admiration and love   .

Tell me how hard it is to make the decision to not go there while i can, and instead focus in the real world where its boring now?

I think when power is given it is often misused for ones own selfish needs.

  some of us were given the gift of immersive daydreaming to help us in times of… Continue

Added by Xyz on February 19, 2021 at 12:11pm — 1 Comment

Talking to myself

When I’m daydreaming or watching a movie and find myself acting out the scene and even talking to myself, most commonly making facial expressions. Now, I know this is common but there’s another part to it. When there becomes a certain show/movie/thing I’m obsessed with, it becomes what I daydream about. I act and dress like whatever character I’m interacting with in my head from that show or movie. It becomes a compulsion and something I can’t really control. I’ve been doing this for years and… Continue

Added by joker_dreamer on February 17, 2021 at 6:18am — 4 Comments

how to control

i usually write my passwords or record when i start talking and interacting, they help me for a few moments my head stops

Added by Raul on February 13, 2021 at 5:05pm — 4 Comments

Just realized possible MD

If left to myself, I can spend weeks, daydreaming. Never realizing time flew by until I stop. Then I am so ashamed of myself losing track of time and letting my responsibilities get behind.

I will get a thought or an idea, see it in my mind and start planning it down to minute details. Even researching everything online. Then online it gets away from me. I get even more distracted and see other things to do or plan.

Then when too tired, I fall asleep thinking about it. Sometimes wake,… Continue

Added by Patty on February 13, 2021 at 1:51pm — 3 Comments

I'm not the only one

It is a relief to know that I am not the only one, sorry if I have a handwriting error I am Brazilian and my English is not very good.
since i remember that i create stories and stages, when i watched movies i thought about similar stories or even i was the main actor when i was growing up i started to do my own daydreams.

Added by Raul on February 11, 2021 at 6:03pm — 1 Comment

Staring into space

Has anybody had trouble with staring into space for a number of years, because they were locked in a story or they were longing for something? Has it changed your health? I did this for as long as I can remember, and it's effected my brain age. 

Added by Jessica Ballantyne on February 10, 2021 at 4:09pm — 2 Comments

If it hadn't started

I have regrets. If I hadn't been daydreaming the way I did—my life would've looked so much better today. I wouldn't still be dependent at 34. And I'd be happy with what I'm doing. I probably could've had a few partners and traveled places. The problem was I wasn't here, and what I did was maladaptive. I even remember when some of my jobs literally got effected by my daydreaming. I've had employers and staff find out, and then I was out. 



Trouble is instead of…

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Added by Jessica Ballantyne on February 8, 2021 at 8:23am — 1 Comment

when will it be in the past?

I always like it when people refer to their problems as something in the past and they are happy that they are not dealing with it anymore.

I had anxiety.

I had financial difficulty.

I was in toxic relationship.

I used to hate my life.

When will it be all in the past for me as well? I've been dealing with this for too long and I'm at a point where I don't really know who I am anymore. 

Added by Erica Tamizi on February 6, 2021 at 6:33pm — 1 Comment

Traveling

I wanted to travel since I was 18. The summer I graduated from high school and got ready for college, I thought about studying art and freely just visiting places everywhere. Not realizing that it's a very expensive hassle to fly to other countries, let alone, you need to really plan your routes wisely. Well, when I was in college, I decided to take a road trip to New York. At this time, I was quite a daydreamer too. This would take place during reading week in February. I argued with my…

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Added by Jessica Ballantyne on February 5, 2021 at 3:35pm — 1 Comment

Meus devaneios atormentam-me

Olá à todos, sou Alice ou Laís. Até 3 dias atrás eu não fazia ideia de meus devaneios poderiam se tornar um transtorno ou melhor que já são um transtorno.

Resolvi pesquisar sobre porque senti que isso está me atrapalhando. Foi aí que encontrei essa comunidade, para mim será um refúgio tenho vergonha de contar isso à alguém, sinto que vão me entender mal e me chamar de louca.



Não lembro como os devaneios começaram, só sei que tem algum tempo, de 4 a 2 dois, não sei. Antes eu… Continue

Added by Alice no país das ilusões on February 4, 2021 at 3:48am — No Comments

New member

Hiya,

I’m soon to be 36 years old and from as far back as early adolescence I have what I now seem to understand is MD. It does not negatively impact my life but I do have periods where I am compelled to find time to focus on my daydream. As a full time working mum of 2 it’s not always easy but lately I am finding that I am carving out time. If I have down time at work I put on music and succumb to my dreams. Driving is also precious time for me. Music is definitely a trigger. I use music… Continue

Added by Katy on February 4, 2021 at 12:10am — No Comments

How does maladaptive daydreaming affect your life

Hello, this first part is going to be about my experiences with maladaptive daydreaming (also sorry if there are any typos my keyboard is not the best)



Let's start at the beginning, I started out my daydreaming experiences many years ago with only one character, who traveled in different dimensions, the oc (original character) was used as an avatar, so they were basically me and had my personality emotions and rational.



Fast forward to 2020 at this point I had detached… Continue

Added by Jessica on February 3, 2021 at 1:41pm — 1 Comment

My Past

I quit doing maladaptive daydreaming, because it gets scary as I get older. I moved into a small village town, starting at 6, looking forward to making friends. Instead, I made many bullies. I was surrounded by crowds of people who didn't understand I had this special gift, and thought I was crazy. Also dumb, because I hardly ever expressed myself verbally. I rarely had a social life, and people began to talk, but especially about how my eyes swivelled around the…

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Added by Jessica Ballantyne on February 1, 2021 at 9:18am — 4 Comments

Want to compare my experience (Long text)

Hi everyone, I’m French, 23 and I just recently found out that there is a medical term for my « inside stories » that is maladaptive daydreaming . I’m happy that there is such a place to talk with you all.

I read a lot about your own experiences, I saw that some of you wants to stop because it can affect love or social life.



I started daydream in middle school, around 12 or 13 yo. At that time I was often bullied and my days were long and lonely. I loved (and still do) to… Continue

Added by Marie on January 31, 2021 at 6:25am — 4 Comments

Anyone else

This post is going to sound weird but who is normal here anyways?



(Please warning dont try the below you could end up like me and hurt your kidneys)



So I believe am the only one who has this urge to hold in my pee and fantasize about negative scenarios

I have been doing the above since I believe  the age 12 until I finally leak in my pants. And i also feel pain in kidneys and bladder at times but I still cant help it .I still do that till this age (am almost 17) even… Continue

Added by Xyz on January 28, 2021 at 3:16am — 2 Comments

New member

Hi
I’m french and I’m 41 years old. I’ m new on this forum and I’m happy to find this community for sharing about MD. as far as I can remember I daydreamed. During childhood it helped me to protect (unconsciously) against some trauma and I thought it was pretty helpful. Then I realized that it became maladaptive. During some periods of time, it disappears and it comes back, especially now.
I would be interested to share about all of this and about the way to handle it.

Added by Aerial on January 27, 2021 at 12:46pm — 1 Comment

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