"I feel sad. I wish that I paid more attention to people, and put effort into that. Trouble is I was so absorbed in my daydream life, and didn't wake up to realize everybody real was calling out at me, and talking to me. I was actually more…"
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Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne May 20. 13 Replies 2 Likes
I try to hide my MD as much as possible. I feel very embarrassed of people seeing me when I'm daydreaming because I will make facial expressions and talk to myself. Sometimes people catch me doing it…Continue
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"That's the spirit! focus on future goals in the way that makes you feel better! I'm living day by day in order to not think too much about the future."
"I'm completely over anything that happened before, I am no longer interested. I have ambitions and goals I still want to pursue. Everybody I've ever known are now just blurred up memories to me. Life does go on, and so do your life…"
"Mmm... I think you carry too much thoughts about being liked by the others, which is something that affected me too, and still affects me in a certain limited degree today. Is one thing try to improve ourselves for our sake, and I'm still…"
"Having Asperger syndrome, I have trouble being liked. Some people think I'm a loser. I have no social skills, so they assume I have no friends. They are not surprised that I'm pained, and my family sees too. I don't know how I effect…"
"Real life will not look like what you dreamed about, not even close. I had so many expectations since I was a kid. I believed I'd have a career by now, I'd travel, and experience a few relationships. Thing is that I didn't really make…"
"Weel, I kind know how it feels since I also have the tendency to be in my own world and not relate with anyone, it happens when I'm in huge company; when I'm alone btw and friends and other people that I know approach me I always keep…"
"Yeah, I should be meeting people who I can relate to very well. I haven't got around to this, because I had my nose in applications, trying to find employment, it's a full-time job to get noticed by anyone. I do hang out with my sister and…"
"Mmm... Have you never tried to search for some meeting groups with people with some similar "issues" to yours? I'm no expert at all, otherwise I would have solved in some way my issues, but maybe meeting people with similar ones to…"
"Thing is that I don't think I know how I make others feel with my behavior—apparently. I unintentionally come off as abhorred, rude, spiteful, or hostile. When really I could be miles away in my head, and not thinking of the next…"
"I've always wanted a boyfriend, never had one, and I wonder how he will take my daydreaming ways. Everybody else had a problem with it. I think the mix between my Aspergers and MD makes them think I'm weird and feel so uncomfortable to…"
"Hello, same goes for me, I got basically the same issues, with DD creeping and mixing on what I see in real life, sometimes I even blackout too and make silly faces; my girlfriend sometimes scolds me when I'm with her with friends and do those…"
"When I was strongly in the stages of MD, my family and other people felt I was in the twilight zone. My decisions and actions did not make any sense, and my eyes had a distant gaze. My MD real was far out. It's wasn't so much like a comic…"
"I had the exact same issues as you being a daydreamer for a majority of my life. Apparently I have only one friend and she lives in another country. She still doesn't know my shocking secret. I broke up with another girl, and she never found…"
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Catastrophic Daydreams
Posted on February 28, 2025 at 11:00pm 1 Comment 0 Likes
I've had MD for more than 20 years. For most of my life, my daydreams have been pleasant and enjoyable, but in the last few years, things have changed drastically. Most of my daydreams now are really scary and unsettling, almost like catastrophic thoughts in the form of a movie in my head. Any time I watch a new show or see something on social media, my brain will twist it into something awful. Someone is abusing me, embarrassing me, torturing me, abandoning me, etc. It's always something…
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