Jessica Ballantyne
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Fantasized Capabilities

Started this discussion. Last reply by Kyle C Monroe Jan 20. 7 Replies

Does anybody have skills, strengths or abilities in their MD, which doesn't exist in their real lives? I'd watch characters on TV/Film and analyze what they do, and I THINK that I'm capable of doing…Continue

Has anyone believed and fell for their daydreams?

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Nov 20, 2022. 29 Replies

I daydreamed since I was a kid, and I believed in them until I was 35. Reality hit me hard, like a brick. I realize now that my fantasies were bogus, and I should've payed attention to my real waking…Continue

Health Effects of MD

Started this discussion. Last reply by Jessica Ballantyne Oct 26, 2022. 2 Replies

Has anybody felt any sickness or health effects after years of doing MDD? Any changes of the brain or changes in physical wellbeing? How do you feel these days?Continue

This is not real

Started this discussion. Last reply by Elaine Nov 15, 2022. 1 Reply

My dad told me once, "Friends don't come out of daydreams." I spent years wanting things that never happened or came, because I didn't make them happen. I was so busy daydreaming and staring off into…Continue

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Jessica Ballantyne replied to Sora D's discussion What Comes Next?
"I can make MD inexplicable until people start to notice that I'm "deaf" and don't respond or react when I should. "
10 hours ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Sora D's discussion What Comes Next?
"I honestly don't need drugs. Just therapy. A wake up call at least. "
yesterday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Sora D's discussion What Comes Next?
"I realize why I have difficult problems connecting or relating with others outside of this community. Most people would think what I do is totally bonkers. "
yesterday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Sora D's discussion What Comes Next?
"What kind of a therapist did you have?"
yesterday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Yelena Cheeli's discussion Maladaptive daydream in DSM?
"I guess you can call it a form of a mental disorder. "
Sunday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Sora D's discussion What Comes Next?
"Surprisingly, I never sought professional help. I actually self-helped my problem of maladaptive daydreaming, long story short. I simply went through phases where I came to realize that it was an association disorder, where I preferred to escape my…"
Sunday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Khloé's discussion Fantasy Love Interest
"Thanks for your advice, that will help me for sure. "
Sunday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Khloé's discussion Fantasy Love Interest
"I'm really not sure if I'm Aegosexual, although I do have problems connecting with real live people 'in the real.' However, I find it very worrisome, sexual fantasies are truly all I'll ever have. I've always wondered…"
Saturday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to emc97's discussion How to deal with MD
"Your message is very strong. I see your point. The aftermath is very real. I'm thankful I stopped dreaming the way I used to. It does not make up for the future I'm doing to be facing. I do hope there will be relief and forgiveness along…"
Thursday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to emc97's discussion How to deal with MD
"I have to admit I spent so much time in "my head" that life just passed me by. Looking at my past is rather freakish. Everybody could tell at a moment's glance that I was lost in a daydream. Especially when I was not of sound…"
Jan 24
Jessica Ballantyne replied to emc97's discussion How to deal with MD
"I learned that we're mostly going to be wrong about everything we predict how our futures should look. I had so many ideas of how I wanted everything to work. I realize that I imagined everything up. Possibly, I set a whole bunch of…"
Jan 23
Jessica Ballantyne replied to emc97's discussion How to deal with MD
"That's the thing. I was usually the person in a crowd someone wanted to kick. I'm Ok, when I work from my house, it's only when I'm in public, there will always be a someone who strongly disagrees with my output. Most places…"
Jan 22
Jessica Ballantyne replied to emc97's discussion How to deal with MD
"I have used MD as a tool to flourish in my creative projects. The only career I'll ever have is dabbling in a studio. It's just, I find it hard to believe I'll succeed at anything else. Most professions you must have very good eyes…"
Jan 21
Kyle C Monroe replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Fantasized Capabilities
"Pshh, why limit it to real skills?  I was 'sure' I could minorly manipulate wind due to my daydreams and I'm so used to making the little gestures from my childhood I instinctively do it still to this day if I don't catch…"
Jan 20
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Fantasized Capabilities
"It's just that I had an unrealistic outlook towards the future. I never realized this at the time. Being a compulsive daydreamer, I didn't see this was damaging all prospects of having it better. Basically, I was sucked in by fantasies.…"
Jan 20
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion Fantasized Capabilities
"I find this really hard to confess, but I lived in the world of "Jessica" for years. I somehow thought I can open my heart to the world this way, and find someone to love, whom I can share this wonderful experience with. Possibly a…"
Jan 13

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Outside my head

Posted on June 4, 2021 at 1:26pm 991 Comments

This is going to sound annoying. Living in a town for 29 years, all I ever heard by others is that I'm so quiet. They literally couldn't get a word out of me. I was too busy daydreaming in my head to realize how I looked on the outside. I actually never knew it made me look stupid. Non-family can be vigorous that way. I always used MD as a way to escape my frustrations, but it did me more harm that good, so I had to quit. It was the best decision I made. 



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Friends are not from Dreams

Posted on May 18, 2021 at 4:47pm 10 Comments

I spent my whole life looking forward to friends and relationships, and this actually could've happened, if I wasn't living on another planet. When I was a kid, I used to ponder around my room and other parts of the house, imagining situations of how I could meet young people in my area. I'd stand in our shady family office, looking at drawings and poetry, wishing that friends would suddenly pop out of nowhere and say hi. All I had to do was talk to my classmates, get their phone…

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In a Maze

Posted on April 19, 2021 at 4:40pm 4 Comments

When I was doing MD, I thought it was awesome. It lulled me into complacency and I'd spend hours staring away into a fuge, with glowing hopes things will eventually go my way. Unfortunately, it dug me into a deeper hole. Nobody knew my satisfaction as I have, but they didn't understand why my eyes had a distant stare, why I moved funny, didn't talk much and why I almost wasn't ever listening. It clearly proved to them that I was in another world. To myself, I believed I can do…

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Putting myself in one's shoes

Posted on April 12, 2021 at 7:09pm 2 Comments

I tend to be inspired by people from movies and TV series, and often wish I had their lives and personas. I know  for sure that I'm not those characters. I don't have their skill sets, minds, looks and their coolness. I work remotely at home, and it can be very boring, so sometimes I imagine myself as a doctor or computer programmer in a science fiction action film. 



Sometimes when I get out there and do what I like, it's still a challenge, because I'm an extremely quiet…

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At 11:40pm on March 21, 2021, Sakshee Dhumal said…

Hey do you mind if I ask what kinda job do you do Rn? I'm still a student and I've always wondered what people like us, who have MD, do when they grow up.

At 12:55pm on February 22, 2021, Varya said…
Hi. You can write to me as well, just in case. You seem like a nice and interesting person. varvaraamarantha@gmail.com
At 5:22pm on February 15, 2021, Raul said…
hi, if you want to talk, this is my email, i can hear you, talk to a person who goes through the same situation helps. raulvasconcelosb@gmail.com
 
 
 

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