Jessica Ballantyne
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Why I must do MD

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There are many things I didn't see growing in life, up until now. At first, I thought I was a normal and OK person will have the same experiences as everybody else, and deserved all the same things.…Continue

I constantly freeze

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I stopped being active with maladaptive daydreaming years back. I have crucial responsibilities, try to stay away and concentrate, but notice that I suddenly wonder off and my eyes go dazed for a…Continue

Crazy

Started May 31 0 Replies

When I was young (teens and 20's) I got carried away and overindulged with MD. I guess that I was too young to understand that's just life and it's going to get harder. Instead of growing and…Continue

Pretending to be other people

Started Apr 27 0 Replies

Back in secondary school, my English teacher noticed how extremely quiet I was sitting there, not taking part in everybody's conversations. At some point I took part in a curling club, she…Continue

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Why I must do MD

There are many things I didn't see growing in life, up until now. At first, I thought I was a normal and OK person will have the same experiences as everybody else, and deserved all the same things. However, everything that ever happened to me was vice versa in a way that was uncalled for and very hurtful. I never understood why I was simply not likeable, and why people thought I earned what I really got. Maybe they found me too weak in how I didn't want to confidently interact with them in a…See More
12 hours ago
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"Today, I felt myself normalize for the first time, since I was a kid. Something drove me to do maladaptive daydreaming. I remember it was a TV series I watched as a preteen, and my mind just enraptured in fantasy. It took over my life. It was a…"
yesterday
Jessica Ballantyne commented on John Alves's blog post Fighting days
"I am trying so hard to drop maladaptive daydreaming...no offence. It coloured years and years of my life. At first, I felt it had no harm on my future. Wrong. It effected every little aspect of my lifelong experiences. It effected how I related and…"
Sunday
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I feel like I can get on with my life now. Like I shut the door on everything that's happened to me. I just want to get out there and do new things elsewhere. I want to start over. That's all that matters to me now. "
Jul 19
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I envy other people. I think it's because I'm deprived of things in life, or they have abilities that I don't have. It makes me feel unimportant, or not smart, or not good. Or I have issues, and need a lot of improvement. "
Jul 16
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I think I'm starting to step out of that world I once lived in. At the dinner table and other places, I notice I'm very quiet and have nothing to say for myself. Everybody else is chatting so normally, about politics and things, like…"
Jul 10
Tan replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"Yeah and tbh since I have been mding I have realised my life hasn’t changed if I had less friends four years ago I still don’t have friends I literally have the same problems yet . I don’t know if I had stoped daydreaming would…"
Jul 6
Tan replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"omg genuinely why do we still keep doing it , like ik none of it is real no my friends don’t exist it’s just me and some songs but then why"
Jul 6
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"If only, I stopped and thought twice. Realized, where is this taking me? Is this making my journey better? I'm just hopping around my room singing songs and talking to fictional friends. But I just kept on doing it...until now. When you wake…"
Jul 6
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I also realize that real life just doesn't look like the illusions in my head."
Jul 5
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I feel that MD sucked my life. Now I nearly have to start over. "
Jul 5
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I'm blown away, right now. I spent the last 25 years, a person of my own world, and my town seemed to be all I needed. The back forest of my house and the field beyond seemed like a great scope for my imagination. I got inspired by many things…"
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Jul 3
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"I have a difficult relationship with my mom. I have an interview in retail the next day. I struggled with sales in my background, but thought I'd go for experience. But she just talks me out of it with an attitude. Tells me I won't get…"
Jul 3
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"Last night I was so embarrassed. I was watching a Netflix movie with my dad. He had to get do something in the backyard. I began to drift off, and stopped concentrating on the dialogue. My dad came back and saw he missed important points, and asked…"
Jul 2
Jessica Ballantyne replied to Jessica Ballantyne's discussion I constantly freeze
"You know what, you're right. I can change this around! Who am I kidding. I can! "
Jul 1

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If only I did it better

Posted on May 24, 2024 at 9:46am 2 Comments

Parents have been telling their kids over the years that daydreaming doesn't get you ahead in the world. My parents never knew that I was a daydreamer, at least my mom didn't, and I was a very quiet kid. I was always thinking and trailing off now and then. Rather than staying in the present moment with others. I didn't tell them what's been going on in that head of mine. 



Whatsoever, when I was 12, my dreams began to get very thick and overpowering. It made me feel wonderful…

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Verbal Skills

Posted on May 2, 2024 at 8:01pm 0 Comments

I was a maladaptive daydreamer all my life, but it got overpowering starting at 12. I am shocked at how I didn't grow adjusted to my worldly environment and social situations. When I was floundering in other fictional worlds, I wasn't learning to excelerate my volcabulary, speech, and social interaction skills, but also my world perception, such as politics, religion, history, culture, and economics. Eventually, I grew up sounding like an idiot with no brain. Truly I'm a smart,…

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Outside my head

Posted on June 4, 2021 at 1:26pm 990 Comments

This is going to sound annoying. Living in a town for 29 years, all I ever heard by others is that I'm so quiet. They literally couldn't get a word out of me. I was too busy daydreaming in my head to realize how I looked on the outside. I actually never knew it made me look stupid. Non-family can be vigorous that way. I always used MD as a way to escape my frustrations, but it did me more harm that good, so I had to quit. It was the best decision I made. 



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Friends are not from Dreams

Posted on May 18, 2021 at 4:47pm 10 Comments

I spent my whole life looking forward to friends and relationships, and this actually could've happened, if I wasn't living on another planet. When I was a kid, I used to ponder around my room and other parts of the house, imagining situations of how I could meet young people in my area. I'd stand in our shady family office, looking at drawings and poetry, wishing that friends would suddenly pop out of nowhere and say hi. All I had to do was talk to my classmates, get their phone…

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At 11:40pm on March 21, 2021, Sakshee Dhumal said…

Hey do you mind if I ask what kinda job do you do Rn? I'm still a student and I've always wondered what people like us, who have MD, do when they grow up.

At 12:55pm on February 22, 2021, Varya said…
Hi. You can write to me as well, just in case. You seem like a nice and interesting person. varvaraamarantha@gmail.com
At 5:22pm on February 15, 2021, Raul said…
hi, if you want to talk, this is my email, i can hear you, talk to a person who goes through the same situation helps. raulvasconcelosb@gmail.com
 
 
 

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