Catastrophic Daydreams

[HowToKillADragon]

I've had MD for more than 20 years. For most of my life, my daydreams have been pleasant and enjoyable, but in the last few years, things have changed drastically. Most of my daydreams now are really scary and unsettling, almost like catastrophic thoughts in the form of a movie in my head. Any time I watch a new show or see something on social media, my brain will twist it into something awful. Someone is abusing me, embarrassing me, torturing me, abandoning me, etc. It's always something traumatic and scary - really scary because it feels so real. My daydreams happen all day, every day. Whenever I have even a few seconds of downtime, my brain immediately slips into a daydream. It's really hard to focus at work and I have a lot of trouble sleeping. I'm really hoping it gets better, but I'm not very confident in my ability to heal from this.

Has anyone else dealt with this? Do you have any advice?

[Jessica Ballantyne]

When I was strongly in the stages of MD, my family and other people felt I was in the twilight zone. My decisions and actions did not make any sense, and my eyes had a distant gaze. My MD real was far out. It's wasn't so much like a comic book or fantasy landscape. It was exploring the inner consciousness of how I envision the world, and filtered through my own eyes. My version of reality was very different from others who looked at it rawly as it stood. My views of the world was set in certain moods, spiritualities, and realisms...or something out of a book or artistic photograph. Hard to explain. By my mid to late 30's, my daydream like dwindled greatly, because of the stress and tension in the household and the agony of job searching. I look back now, and realize that I had a daydreaming disorder. Also, I was very distracted and had major listening problems, which took a toll on both my career life and relationships, as most times, I live in my own world.