Hope from the other side, a former MDDer

[Rosenheart]

Hi! Im a former MDDer, i left mdding in the September of 2021 after wasting 8 years of my life to it. I just want to give hope to people who are struggling that it is possible. It was the hardest battle i fought tbh, but it was worth it. Life isnt all roses now, but the amount of difference is insane. I am so much freer and at peace than i used to be. Mdding in circles is just like a hen going back and forth all day and accomplishing nothing. There is very less stuff written by people who overcame this, and that’s probably bec alot of people aren’t bothered, theyre busy living. Even i have thought countless times on making a long post and writing everything down but its been 3.5 years and i havent been able to. One thing i wanted to say that although all the treatment modalities are nice and helpful, opening up to people, sharing your struggles, journaling and everything. But in the end it is an addiction, a pathway to soothe yourself that your mind has taken, just like any other addiction, and it must be fought with willpower. After you have fought and won though, your journey wont be over. Youll have to deal with the root cause of everything to find greater happiness, but that part would be easier. For now, use whatever help you can get, i used to journal and talk to my friends alot, but remember it is an addiction, and it has to be kicked in the a** like any other one. I hope you find peace on the other side. Cheers!