Hope from the other side, a former MDDer

[Rosenheart]

Hi! Im a former MDDer, i left mdding in the September of 2021 after wasting 8 years of my life to it. I just want to give hope to people who are struggling that it is possible. It was the hardest battle i fought tbh, but it was worth it. Life isnt all roses now, but the amount of difference is insane. I am so much freer and at peace than i used to be. Mdding in circles is just like a hen going back and forth all day and accomplishing nothing. There is very less stuff written by people who overcame this, and that’s probably bec alot of people aren’t bothered, theyre busy living. Even i have thought countless times on making a long post and writing everything down but its been 3.5 years and i havent been able to. One thing i wanted to say that although all the treatment modalities are nice and helpful, opening up to people, sharing your struggles, journaling and everything. But in the end it is an addiction, a pathway to soothe yourself that your mind has taken, just like any other addiction, and it must be fought with willpower. After you have fought and won though, your journey wont be over. Youll have to deal with the root cause of everything to find greater happiness, but that part would be easier. For now, use whatever help you can get, i used to journal and talk to my friends alot, but remember it is an addiction, and it has to be kicked in the a** like any other one. I hope you find peace on the other side. Cheers!

[Jessica Ballantyne]

I'm a former MDDer of 20+ years, and have wasted my life to it, all the same. I feel sad, because I lost a lot of opportunities to build relationships, get experience, and trying new and challenging things. I basically spent the last 15 years freelancing and sitting about the house, if not going outside to run errands. 

I learned the hard way that dreams only come true if you do work hard to make them happen—not wish on them. Of course, I didn't speak up to get what I wanted either. 

[SA]

Hi!!!! it's nice reading what you just wrote. Wishing you best for your journey outside of MD. I too let go of MD back in Jan 2024. Since then, it's been all about overcoming it by processing repressed emotions. My MD was about me not being my true self. I buried my self down due to rejection. 

I have, after more than a year, reached a point where I only daydream about sharing opinions or superficial stuff. I think most of my existential issues have been taken care of. Could you, however, give me some advice as to how to finally end it or at least, tell me what would help in getting to the point where I have processed whatever I wanted with my ego? Cos let's face it, MD is feeling everything that you couldn't feel with your ego. 

THANKS!!!

[Jessica Ballantyne]

It took me years to suppress MD altogether, I realized it was deeply effecting my life. I dealt with very embarrassing and nearly traumatic consequences. For instance, a lot of people found out what I must be doing, when I couldn't hear them or judge what I was doing. They'd yell at me to pay attention—me a grown woman, in front of everybody. I've even done really stupid things that I could've avoided if I used my brain. I was called names like zoner. I came to my realization that I should have told my parents in advance *MD started at 12,* because it changed my life forever. My current life is very unsatisfying and I'm unemployed, so I'm stirring around wondering what the heck to do. I really have no time to MD anymore, but still catch myself daydream regularly sometimes, and it's very hard to stop altogether apparently. Like the air I breathe. Lol.