Where wild minds come to rest
It's been about five days since I've began slowly stripping away maladaptive daydreaming. It's been going pleasantly well so far by my surprise. In the beginning I told myself I'm just going to quit cold turkey and if I have some slip-ups it's OK and Iv'e been doing just that. I haven't had as nearly many urges to have "my time" and if I do I will only have it for 10 minutes and then be done with it and I am satisfied with that. After I've had my ten minutes I'm good for the day. I would…Continue
Added by Emily on August 17, 2017 at 8:45am — No Comments
I think that I see what's wrong.....
Because I day dreamed excessively for 20 years, the only life I ever knew exists inside my head....I only knew myself inside my head. In the real world, I have no life....I don't exist in reality....I'm currently not "somebody" at all. Seriously,
I rarely speak a word to 'real life' people. I practically don't have an existing personality. So, I don't exist in reality to present living people. Therefore, I've never had any relationships up to…
like most of you i was blatantly surprised and happy for the fact that there are more people like me..for now am on the learning phase of my condition.....one thing that bothered me is that none of you mentioned about what language u use in your day dream even though English is not my mother tongue i tend to create a most of the scenario with it.
Added by docho on August 15, 2017 at 6:50am — No Comments
I have idea if it was because of AUTISM. I look back at three decades. I smack my head and think, "what an idiot!" It was as if I was 'living in my own world.' Even if I was wide awake and here in this world, I ask myself, "Would I still have seen some differences? Wouldn't I have gotten some opportunities. What are the odds?" Of course, I knew a lot of jerks and bitches in my time. I can't help the fact many people can be jerks....especially to somebody as socially awkward and…
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on August 14, 2017 at 8:30am — No Comments
There is nothing else for it. I struggle so hard to turn it off when I need to. If I could flip a switch and just stop when I'm at work or out being social, that would be great. If I could just control it, that's what I would like.
I once had an old friend give me Adderall, and that was wonderful. And when I drink, it is also wonderful. Why? Because my mind can't wander.
That's what I want; a way to shut it off.
Added by Damask on August 13, 2017 at 10:06pm — No Comments
After joining this website I've come to the conclusion that I finally want to stop this addiction that I have. Don't get me wrong I will miss it like crazy and most likely have terrible urges to go back to it. I'm taking this one step at a time because I know something that has manifested itself for over 10 years won't simply just go away. My main character in my world will always be by my side. She's taught me a lot of things. But it is now time to take a hold of my own personal life. I…Continue
Added by Emily on August 12, 2017 at 9:01am — No Comments
I think that I see why now. Why I never got anything I wanted. I never spoke up! I didn't ever socialize. I never got into people's faces. I lived in other worlds. I buried myself away from others.
I mean, if people really want something, they go for it! They talk about it to others. They're socially open and active. Whereas, I was very shy. I am still shy today.
I lost because I went to sleep. Then I was too scared to speak my mind....I didn't do this for a…
I have not been keeping up with the community on this site, which I regret. I was so happy to find people like myself initially – it was such joy to know that you all exist. But, as often happens, life gets in the way. I don’t know how much traffic this site gets or if anyone will actually read my little scribe, but I can’t think of who else might understand what I am going through. And I just need to get my thoughts out there. The thing is, what I recall from my limited presence here is…Continue
When I found out that this website was a thing, I was overjoyed. Me and my best friend both share this condition and it is something we bond over immensely. But seeing a whole community coming together and sharing their stories is pretty amazing. Maladaptive Daydreaming started for me at a young age of probably seven. My mom was diagnosed with paranoia and was in and out of hospitals that whole year so I lived with my grandparents for the remainder of that time. Their neighbors had a swing…Continue
It seems clear, I live on 'planet Jessica.' I am so unique. In a way, everything I do is questionable to people. Well, I also happen to have autism spectrum disorder. I mean, I do certain things with my hands, face, eye movements and body gestures that may come off as weird to everyone else. When I was so much younger, I thought people wouldn't think anything of this, perhaps be open to it, or at least not react like I am completely nuts. I believed that I would see stuff I wanted…Continue
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on August 6, 2017 at 8:02pm — No Comments
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
I've been daydreaming since I can remember, and have created countless stories in my head. Some of them over the course of years, with attendant complexity.
I have also written stories and made short films. Never have the two met. I don't work out my paper or video stories in daydreams. At most I steal discrete elements from my daydream stories, not the whole thing.
Is this true for anyone else?
I have always wanted to date people and maintain a relationship. I have never experienced this. I am 31 years old!
I have spent a lifetime of dealing with people who didn't like who I was. What I mean is, I have always had problems getting intimate with people. I was an intensely timid and quiet person. So, either nobody noticed I was there or it they did, they never really gave a shit.
Well, I spent my entire life day dreaming about being people I'm totally not and…
I was told to try writing about my MD and I am not sure if it will be helpful but I will try all the same, I will warn everyone that I am a terrible speller :)
I had to keep running, I knew he wasn't far behind. The sewage smelled terrible and the tunnel was dark, all I could hear was my breathing and the pounding of my footsteps on the wet ground. my heart raced, I had to make it stop he would hear my heartbeat. The gun was still in my hand and the…Continue
Day dreaming is a method mind used to run away from all fears and problems. I think it's the strongest addiction which spoils a man's most precious time. But this energy produced from mind can convert into productive purposes. For ex. innovative ideas and spectacular designs made by the mankind are the outcome of some crazy minds. In my personal experience I can say it may disrupt the friendly relation to the people around us. That we need to have a control over…Continue
His name was Blackie (or Blackey as my sister spelled it) and he was one of my best friends. I'm not sure how I'm ever going to get over his death or if I'll be able to connect/love another pet as much as I did him.
He had surgery a month ago to remove bladder stones but began deteriorating the last two weeks. After going to the vet three days ago and being told his symptoms were "normal," we decided to take him again Tuesday morning. We were then told that this whole time he had…Continue
I gasped when I saw the 10th reason why you waste your life
Added by Jessica Ballantyne on July 25, 2017 at 1:43pm — No Comments
This is my first day talking about myself and my condition online and I hope whoever reads this will appreciate the context and be respectful. In short I do daydream often and I talk to myself frequently while pacing back and forth, however if I am not intereacting with someone I will mummble to myself/ talk to myself while i am walking to my car or on my way to class. I know that they are not real, and If i am by myself I tend to indulge in my fantasy. I keep telling myself I should just…Continue
This morning I was sitting at the TV having my breakfast. My mother went out shopping, so I was alone in the kitchen.
I suddenly began to fall into a fantasy where I was being interviewed in a talk show about my life long struggles with Asperger Syndrome and how I am overcoming it very slowly. I began talking towards the TV with my hands waving around while eating and sipping my coffee. In my head, I was talking to a talk show host in front of a big audience of people and…
Does anyone roleplay?
I do, and when I do it feels like I let the characters take over and watch them do their thing, so it's a bit more intense for me.