Has it really been 8 months? Part 4

[Hana]

Part 4 is here!

BOYS

This is something a little more recent. I think one of my good friends might like me. Now I need to explain some things first:

• -Please don't take what I'm about to say the wrong way. Because most people don't understand where I'm coming from.
• -I am a very likable person. I'm pretty, (at least to other people, I certainly don't think that way about myself, if you knew me at all you'd know that's the TRUTH.) I'm honest, I tell great stories to keep a conversation going,  and people just like me. I guess it's not such a bad thing, untilllll...........
• -I meet people (guys) for the first time and they fall madly in love with me.... It's true, it's like a freakin curse! And I have yet to meet a person who can understand the feeling. People tell me that it's not the way I think it is, or they say that I'm crazy, or they tell me that I should enjoy the attention. But NO! They don't understand, they have no idea how terrible it really is. Because I meet a person, they fall in love with me and they tell me they have feelings for me and I have to shoot them down, because I certainly don't feel the same, and then they no longer want to be friends with me. (I can't really blame them). It has happened more times than I have fingers and toes. And it happens with ALL ages, which is just gross. I've had MARRIED men try to go after me. I've had 16 and 12 year olds tell me they like me. NO! JUST NO! I wish it would stop! BUT because this has happened so many times....
• -I have developed the "Oh no, it's happening again, run for the hills" radar. So basically I can tell when a person has an interest in me and I can cut off ties or try to inform them that nothing could ever happen between us before it's too late. The latter usually doesn't work, I try to be as straight forward as I can be without straight up saying "hey I know you like me but chill, I have no romantic feelings for you..." but I feel like sometimes it only makes it worse because I become more of a challenge. So I usually just have to stop all communication with a person. Which is unfortunate but it was bound to happen anyway.....

Anyway, with all this said, my radar is going and it's telling me that one of my friends has fallen victim to my curse. It's different this time, I cannot just cut off ties with him. He is a really good friend to me. But the truth is, and I've blogged about this before, I kinda like being alone. I really don't think I can be in a relationship because I already have so many relationships with so many people in my head, I couldn't function in a real one. And I honestly don't want to, I like my daydreams and I don't want to give them up. But the other truth is, if I ever start to imagine my life as a married woman with children of my own, I picture him as my husband. But I don't know if that means I have feelings for him.... I imagine A LOT of things, lol, I have MD.... 

I don't know what to do in this situation, I don't want to just pretend like I don't know his interest in me, and I don't want to not be his friend anymore.... I don't want to wait for him to say something and have to turn him down. And at the same time I'm afraid that if I have to turn him down it will close the door on a possibly good relationship forever. I don't know. I feel like I'm being really selfish... =/ 

[Hana]

Thank you! I've been thinking about making some tee shirts that say "Welcome to the Friend Zone" on them. lol. How funny would that be?

All joking aside, it's pretty obvious that he does in fact have feelings for me, and each time I see him I can tell he's slowly trying to make a move. I guess I'll try, for the time being, NOT to over think it. And if he does make a move: whatever happens, happens.

[Soul Dreamer]

My friend is exactly like that!

Before I met her, her guy friend asked her out, and she said yes even though she's told me she wasn't sure if she had those sort of feelings for him. They've been together for 4 years, and now when guys ask her out she can just say "Sorry, I have a boyfriend" instead of outright rejecting them.

I really can't give any dating advice since I've never actually been in a relationship, but I hope it all turns out well for you!