I Kinda Don't Want Summer to Start

[Hana]

My summer, especially around the middle of July - the middle of August is going to be very busy. I'm kinda not looking forward to it. I think part of my problem is that my work entails me to make sure everybody around me is having fun. And I think as a result, I'm not going to be able to really enjoy my summer.

At least 2 days a week I will be babysitting from 8:00am - 6:30pm. If anybody here has ever babysat before, you should know how rough that time frame is. And I like the kids I sit for, but they are separated by 3 years and they get under each others skin so much. I just know it's not going to be all smiles.

And then I have to plan activities for the Youth Group and I've crammed them all in between July 24th and August 14th just because of everyone's schedules. And they are a VERY indecisive group and will say they want to do this and that... but then they back out at the last minute or they procrastinate and show up unexpected at the last minute. So I know that's gonna be unpleasant too. 

And all my friends have been bugging me about hanging out.... I'm already getting frustrated and the summer just started. I wonder if anybody here feels the way I do. Most people I know complain that they are so bored and have nothing to do, I wish I could switch with them. 

On an unrelated note, a friend told me: if you sleep with 2 pillows (1 under your head and 1 in your arms), it means you're lonely. I can believe that. I do not sleep this way, so you know. I don't think it's possible for me to be lonely with all these paracosms in my head, lol. 

And on another unrelated note, in my last blog I talked about a boy who likes me. Well, I found out that he is an atheist. Now I know for a fact that we could NEVER be together. His beliefs don't bother me as far as being friends, but there is no way, not in a million years, I could ever be romantically involved with a person who doesn't share my beliefs. So at least I don't have to worry about that anymore, I just have to survive this summer....