Both were written around Christmas. I really should get down to writing moar.

"Night Air"--December 24th, 2012

Night swirling colours in the fireplace,

violet, navy, warm ember bright

the bustle, the warmth of the flames

an owl outside, the stars above he sees

in the silver light, beyond the trees

beyond the cliff, below the sparkling valley

streetlights dash on for ages

"Mundane"

I am mundane.

No…

well i think my whole family knows i daydream bcoz they have caught me talking to my self,,,it is so embarrassing,  i remember once one of my friend told me that her neighbour hood lady talk to her self  ,,she said""i have seen her do this number of times ,, i think she is mad ""and then she started laughing In order to make her believe   that yes i also think doing lik this is so weird i also joined  her and laughed on her neighbour hood    lady....................That was the time that i…

Till Yesterday,I didn't think what I'm passing through is a disorder,I though it was just boredom and sometimes mild depression,so I surfed the web for solutions for this issues.I couldn't find anything that's compatible with problem.

My daydreams became annoying and destructive for the past two years,I couldn't focus in school though I don't daydream during lectures,I get acceptable grades but not the grades that I used to get.It gets worse every time I fail in something or feel…

I'm being treated for psychotic symptoms and it's making it so hard to daydream.

I feel like I'm at a fork in the road and I have to decide whether I want to get better or live depressed, but with my daydreams.

It's hard. On one hand, I want to get better. I want to be a musician and have friends and do all sorts of normal things. I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want to be a happy, functioning person.

On the other hand, I can't let go of this. I've built up this…

Hi im Molly and i've been maladaptive daydreaming ever since i can remember. All through my elementary school years i got bullied because people would catch me daydreaming and thought i was weird. Im in my last year of middle school now, and ive learned to hide it. Im kind of happy i have this due to the amazing pros that come from it, those the cons tend to get in the way of my school work a lot. Im really happy im not crazy and other people have MD. Im also ecstatic that there is such an…

I've been daydreaming excessively and I began to worry about it so I looked it up and came across MD (Maladaptive daydreaming). I started out just imagining me talking to someone a friend from school, neighbor, family member usually a person I would see the next day. I imagined what our conversation would be like. This wasn't  bad, BUT THEN it got so bad that they were no longer conversations, but a whole other world! With many characters and different events. I would laugh, cry, argue and…

I was wondering, how many of you look at pictures while daydreaming? I read some discussions just now and people said that they cover up pictures while daydreaming because they feel like someone is watching them. Well for me it's the opposite, I look at pictures of the people in my daydreams (obviously you can only do this if your characters are real people, which most of mine are, but I suppose you could look at pictures of other things if they are not real people). So does anyone else do…

Well I haven't posted a poem here in a long time and it does not have anything to do with MD at all. Yet, I feel I should post this for those who may be able to relate with this poem. It's hard to explain, being in my  best friend's position and have had to dealt with suicidal friends before. Though one did it for attention and one is alive, but I'm afraid we barely talk now.  Lately my best friend is really down, and I'm terrified she's becoming suicidal. I so desperately try to make her…

I'm really frustrated right now, and I don't know what to do about it.  After years of drinking way too much, I managed to quit on my own (after numerous attempts) back in 2006.  It was really hard, but I did it, and I've been really good about staying sober.  The problem is I keep dreaming about drinking.  I'm usually not drinking in excess in my dreams, but the fact that I'm drinking at all is really disturbing to me.  The other night I didn't dream that I was drinking per se, but I…

I read some of this article and it seems to me MD has to be some kind of variation under OCD.  I thought it was interesting.  Especially the part about having face your fears.   

http://beyondocd.org/expert-perspectives/articles/ten-things-you-need-to-know-to-overcome-ocd

Throughout my 34 years of life, I always knew I was different.  This wasn't just because I'm gay, and not just because I've suffered from major bouts of depression and anxiety.  No, it is because of something else.  Something that I finally have a name for:  Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder.  Until late last week, I thought I was alone, or that I was just a freak.  I had no idea that many other people suffer from the same thing I do.  It was almost like a weight was lifted off me.…

I am not sure I am liking realizing I may have this MD but know I need to do something about it, I don't dream about other things movie, characters etc.. Just myself and life situations playing out over and over in different ways and I can't seem to function outside of my head, things are piling up work, I can't seem to find interest in friends or being social I have been like since childhood. its lonely and impossible to form a relationship/friendship when I am constantly in my mind. I have…

I've often wondered what was wrong with me, why I was different. I would be lost in my fantasies and snap back to reality, suddenly aware and conscious, wondering if others could see my thoughts. I have never told anyone about my daydreaming problem. I felt too embarrassed and scared of what others might think. Would they think I'm crazy? 

I have always been introverted and quiet, somewhat of a loner. I didn't have an easy time during my school years. I was ostracized with no friends.…

Hello everybody! I've been silently observing this website after my first blog post and you guys all seem so nice. I feel like I can say anything and what a wonderful feeling that is. So i'm curious, do you guys have characters that inhabit the world of your daydreams? If so, do you relate to them? For some reason all the characters in my daydreams are male. I actually have a hard time daydreaming about female characters unless it's myself in someway. The male characters I daydream about are…

Does anyone else feel that the ability to pace, jump, dance or make big movements while dreaming has a massively positive effect on mood, enthusiasm and energy levels?

Last year, while living in a basement room away from people with no windows, I was able to "use" my DD's in a way which was actually beneficial. I'd DD and pace/dance before class and other events to put me in a happier more energetic mood. My internal conversations also made me come up with smart/funny/interesting…

Today, a very nice lady moved out of my apartment building, so I thought I'd share something in her honor.  She actually signed up for this site, but I don't think she comes here anymore.  I didn't know her well.  We'd say "Hi" in passing but not much more than that.  However, many years ago, when I was having a bad day, she did something very sweet.  It was 3 days before Christmas, and I had bought several pairs of fun socks for myself as a treat, when suddenly I lost my wallet.  I looked…