Has it really been 8 months? Part 1

[Hana]

So yea, I think the last time I was here blogging was about 8 months ago.... It sounds like a long time but really it hasn't felt very long. Recently my days have felt like seconds and my weeks like minutes. Months have passed by and I feel like it was only just yesterday that I was here, pouring my mind out on the internet for other people to read..... So for all of those who still remember me, HI! It's been a while and I'm here now, doing good. I don't know how long I'll be here blogging away but sooooo much has happened over the last 8 months I have to share some of it. It's too much to write in just one blog. So if you really want to keep up with it, I'll be posting a new one each week. So tune in next Friday!

WORK

1. I got a job. I don't know if I mentioned this one time, maybe I popped on real quick, but I have a part time job babysitting for a family near by. IT'S REAL WORK! I just want to stress that because for some reason people think child care is easy and don't consider my job as a "real job" but it is. I pick the kids up from school, make them a snack, help them with their homework, play with them, cook them dinner, and clean up, and then get them ready for bed. It's fun. I love my job. I love the kids I sit for too. I work for this family 2 times a week for about 3 and a half hours a day. It's not much, but it's really all I need. I don't have a lot of expenses. And i do sit for other families occasionally. Now that's it's toward the summer I've been working a lot though. I once worked 2 weeks straight and that includes Saturdays and Sundays! So it may "only be babysitting" but it has kept me busy!! Which isn't a bad thing, I do really love what I do, but it is one of the reasons I haven't had much time to blog or keep up with this wonderful website, or even DD. Yea, it's true, I don't have a lot of time to DD anymore. If I'm at work and I start to daydream the kids will pull me back to reality. And I'm so exhausted when I get home I usually just fall asleep. =/ I miss my free time. 

2. Now I've mentioned before that I work at my church with the Youth Group. I had been working with a guy and we had been splitting up the responsibilities (not very well I might add. I love him to death but he's just not the type to plan things out and doesn't have the best work ethic...) But his school schedule made it next to impossible for him to be there on Thursday nights and I have been doing EVERYTHING for quite some time now. He called me one night and asked to speak with me after Youth Group. He told me that he didn't think he could do it anymore, that his school and his job were too time consuming and he was considering leaving after this summer. Now I don't know if he is still "thinking it over" like he said to me, but I kinda got the impression that he had already decided to quit. So now I've been handling things on my own, I want to do so much for these kids but it's really kinda hard to go at it all alone. He had suggested that we bring someone in as a new leader because he does help out a lot and has a good faith and is actually looking into seminary.... but I don't know if that's going to work. The problem is that he and I don't work well together. It's funny too because we are like best friends, but the truth is, I  know he's not ready for something like this. He is too immature, he has some emotional problems, and he is too close with the members of the youth group- they don't see him as an authority figure. I don't know what's going to happen, I'll just leave it to God and let his will be done. I'm honestly tired of trying so hard to change things for the better only to have it back fire and get thrown in my face. I can see now that no matter what I try to do, it all comes down to the group. If they don't want to do the things I've planned than it's just not gonna happen. They need to make the choice for themselves to want more from the youth group, and then I can start successfully doing more for them.

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

Welcome back!  Staying busy is the only thing that helps me daydream less.  I'm glad you're busy and enjoying your work.  I hope things get better at your church.