Hi everyone.i'm writing after 2-3 months.my mental conditions
have worsened. I am trying to get all the things in my head out but
I dont want anyone to know about it.so I am going to say it here.
I thought that I was fighting to stop dding.but I realize that I am
Not improving at all.in fact I dont have any controlled over ir.
For the last 2 weeks I have been like a zombie.I cant think or do
Anything.I dont have any self controlle left.I keep doing things that
I shouldn't do.I always feel like a sleep deprived person,which I am.
And if there is a stage 4 of MD,I am currently experienceing it.
I cant find anything which is not a trigger.books,sounds,tv,talks,
Voices everything automatically starts a new dd.sometimes I have
Multiple dds together.is it a common thing or i'm going insane? ???
I cant study,literally.I dont have any dream or target.and everything seems
Pointless.I dont hang out with anyone,I stopped going out.my mom
was happy until I started to talk.anyway,I stopped going out cause
I realized that i silently beg for company.I always drop the other
Person home.I never get a call.nobody likes me.so I stopped doing it
It.but its not helping me.I am lost.I fear my head might explode from
all the dds going in my head.I am thinking of taking drugs,the mere
Thought makes me feel pathetic.I dont know what to do.