Where wild minds come to rest
I'm being treated for psychotic symptoms and it's making it so hard to daydream.
I feel like I'm at a fork in the road and I have to decide whether I want to get better or live depressed, but with my daydreams.
It's hard. On one hand, I want to get better. I want to be a musician and have friends and do all sorts of normal things. I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want to be a happy, functioning person.
On the other hand, I can't let go of this. I've built up this world and it really is all I have. I need it and letting go of it scares me. It makes me sad to think that I won't have my world and my friends. It just makes me so sad.
I don't know which road to take.