Being treated

[littleschrodinger'scat]

I'm being treated for psychotic symptoms and it's making it so hard to daydream.

I feel like I'm at a fork in the road and I have to decide whether I want to get better or live depressed, but with my daydreams.

It's hard. On one hand, I want to get better. I want to be a musician and have friends and do all sorts of normal things. I don't want to be miserable anymore. I want to be a happy, functioning person.

On the other hand, I can't let go of this. I've built up this world and it really is all I have. I need it and letting go of it scares me. It makes me sad to think that I won't have my world and my friends. It just makes me so sad.

I don't know which road to take. 

[Tinkerbell]

It's hard because you are so used to it you can not imagine being without it but just look at what you have just said.  You have meantioned that you want to get better and be a musician and have friends.  It sounds like you have already made your decision.  Good luck with your treatment. 

[sky high]

See in the end u know it is not real so why go after it choose the reality i know it is hard ,,,,,but after some time when u look back to this moment u will feel u made the right choice,,,,,u should not regret that u had the chance to come out if it only if u had made the right choice then ,,,,,,,it is easy said then done "i know that also " but seriously ask your self y u r on this page ,,,becoz u have a problem with MD right??? so y r u giving it second thought move on ,,,the real life is waiting for you,,,