Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
For the first time in my life- I have no real obsessive urge to daydream . I did something very extreme - I went on a vacation by myself , I had to share a room with a room mate (a stranger) and was also forced to interact with a group 24/7 for about 3 weeks.
During this time I was so busy that I hardly had time to DD . When I returned home I also realized that I was actually living a nightmare where I was being tormented by narcissistic family members and that I was indeed traumatized due to emotional pain all my life.
I also recognized the disparity between my energy levels away from my family and then with my family. I finally realized that I am a victim of emotional vampires who feed off my sadness and hopelessness. That is why I have no energy to make friends or pursue my dreams.
Now that I have awoken - I have energy to fight for myself and feel that everything is not hopeless. That I can have happiness in THIS life and not ONLY in a fake one. So now I have diverted that energy to my REAL life.
I also realized that I have no one to really care for me so now I am more actively engaged in day to day happenings.My family brainwashed me - telling me I am no good and useless. This is often a self-fulfilling prophecy - I now say to all of you , examine those nearest and dearest and see if they are not slowly killing your soul.