Anger Management and MD?

[Jennifer]

Hi,

My name is Jennifer, and I am now sixteen years old. Lately, a strand of things have been happening, causing me to feel all of this intense anger inside, and sometimes I'll lash out and do or say things that are not like me because of this anger. Now, I don't know if it's possible that I may have an anger management issue, but haven't been experiencing symptoms of it until now, or if it's just me reacting to everything that has been going on lately. But, it just seems like everything sets me off, and that I constantly have this anger just boiling inside and always ready to come out.

The reason I'm posting this is because I read somewhere online that Borderline Personality Disorder could contribute to these random anger outbursts, and I also read that Schizophrenia can, as well. So, I was wondering...Can MD do the same? What do you guys think? Do any of you also have an anger management problem as well as MD? (Only if you're willing to share, of course. I think WildMinds is a pretty safe "environment" to talk about personal subjects, though; most of the people on this site are supportive and understanding. I've only met a few who aren't).

Also, I was wondering if what I said makes sense; is it possible that, sometime during early childhood, I could have developed an anger management issue and have just never experienced symptoms of it until now? I don't think that's really possible, and even if it is, it's probably extremely rare for people to have it happen that way. But, I just don't know what to believe; I am hoping that it's just what has been going on in my life right now that is causing me to feel this boiling anger and causing me to lash out on everyone all the time, but, at the same time, I've never seen myself act this way before. And the anger is so intense that it's unreal. Sometimes I just get so angry that I just feel numb. Cold, with no emotion. Is any of this normal? Does anyone with MD ever also experience this?

Thank you so much in advance! I would appreciate some feedback. :-)

Jennifer xoxo

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

I know.  It's just a common misconception because an old study that was done found that.  I just wanted to be sure that you knew.  If you want to read the findings, there's a link on the links page.  

[Normie]

It was just something I had noticed amongst a lot of us, thats all. I make a list and put so on, leaving room for other things. I never meant to make it sound like it was the case for most, just something I had noticed in the people I have heard. 

[Cordellia Amethyste Rose]

Normie, Dr. Cynthia Schupak and Jayne Bigelsen did a study on MD not too long ago, and they found that the old finding that MD is caused by abuse is untrue.  They found that there were no more instances of trauma or abuse among MDers than the general population.  Though it may be the cause for some, it's definitely not the cause for most.  

[Normie]

I think that many people who MDD do it as either a way of escape or thoughts that they can not control (or maybe other reasons) but what most of us seem to have in common is that we have had some kind of traumatic past, whether it be abuse, bullying, bereavement and so on.

I can relate to the anger problems. For me MDD is a way of escape because I had a very lonely childhood and I was bullied every day. My past made me shy and withdrawn, I have many problems now because of it. I have my life planned out but having these problems makes it difficult to achieve. I get depressed and very angry inside and it feels like it is building up. I know that if I don't sort it now, then one day I will explode.

And I think that that is how anger problems really work, rather then it just being there for no reason, it builds and builds.

Do you think know your reasons for MDDing? 

What I am trying to say is that anger problems could very well be related to MDD but maybe not because you MDD. I think you need to look at what your MDD was caused from, if you want to deal with your anger problems.

I am 20 now and when I was 16 (and younger) I had this anger and fear and I left it until now to really talk about any of my past and try to get it sorted. I now have BDD, social anxiety, depression and I MDD all the time. So it is nice to see that you are trying to understand it. I suggest speaking to your doctor about how you feel and don't leave it to build up anymore because one day you might let it burst.