My Introduction

[AnnieInWonderland]

Hello~ The name's Annie and I'm just gonna write a bit about myself here ^_^.

I've had this...MDD ever since I can remember, around my toddler years I think, maybe 4 or 5. The most horrible thing about it is that not only do I just completely enter a world of my own, but I don't even realize what I'm doing until I snap out of it. When I daydream, I start making a bunch of weird facial expressions and start clenching my hands until they start shaking- at least, that's what I'm told. My parents have taken me to numerous doctors as a child, but none of them knew what was wrong with me. I didn't know what was wrong with me until just recently. 

Because of the actions that I do, I was bullied a lot as a kid, with kids making fun of me and trying to mimic my actions, and I had no idea of what to do or say, since I wasn't even sure of what I was doing. It got so bad that the principal and staff got involved, and I was merely told "Just stop doing whatever you're doing, it's not attractive for a young girl like you to be making weird faces".  My parents told me the same, and they kept telling me as long as I keep zoning out and making weird faces, I'll never be successful in life or get a job. Obviously, all of this lowered my self-esteem greatly and the stress didn't really help my MD. Ironically, all of their efforts just heightened it.

During the third and fourth grade, I was kind of abused. Not going to get into detail, but that's when I would just daydream for hours, with no one to tell me anything. I loved it, it was blissful and my escape from reality, as bad as it was.

Eventually, my MD became less and less frequent as I became more self-conscious and tried to keep a control over it. Well, at least it was less frequent than it used to be, and people slowly started to forget about it. Then came the move, I moved all the way across the country away from my friends, family, and the familiar environment. My MD got worse again, and I have no idea what's gonna happen from here on out.

WELLL THAT'S MY MD STORY WHICH LEADS ME TO NOW~ Me as a normal 16-year old girl who's now a junior in high school. I'm a pretty easy-going, happy-go-lucky, airhead who doesn't hate on anybody and is just a hippie off drugs. I really like books and manga/anime and games so feel free to chat me up anytime ^_^.  I hope we get along~

[AnnieInWonderland]

Sorry I replied so late, I traveled overseas and had no internet there :P.  Thanks for the advice, I try to keep my head up most days, but sometimes life isn't too kind for me, especially now with even MORE problems arising to the surface, but I won't bother you with that ^_^. I know that there are tons of people out there who have it worse and keep struggling, so that helps me a bit. LOL I hate exercise too, but I am trying to get out more and be a little active nowadays, especially since there's a bunch of really nice nature close to my house, so it helps me calm down a bit.  Thank you so much for your words, they might be simple but they help :).

[Sotiria ddd]

I totally get it my md wasn't so bad before I moved. I move to another country and my life just went to hell. I was sucked into my MD even more cuz my home and school life where disasterous. Anyway I got help when I was 18 for depression and anxiety it helped my MD. However when my depression gets bad my daydraming gets worse.  Sometimes I just don't want to deal with the world and get sucked into daydreaming even more. Take it from someone who's been burned try to make friends, any friends. I know moving sucks but trying to avoid reality and just daydreaming isn't going to get you anywhere. Take up exercise( I hate exercising but i does wonders for your MD and your confidence). I wish you all the best:)