I don't think it's possible for me to stop.

But honestly: I haven't tried. I guess I just don't want to. I've thought about it, but I can't imagine living without daydreaming constantly. It's just something I have to do. I can't be happy without it. At least it feels that way. But at the same time, daydreaming has caused me more pain than anything else in the world. And it's all because of that stupid day when I watched the video that changed my fantasy world forever. I DD about real people. But they've been broken up in the real world for two years. They're youtubers. I used to be able to switch characters easy. I can't anymore. There's something about the pair that I can't let go. But the thing that kills me the absolute most - every single day - is that she has been dating a new guy for over a year. Every day I think about what I'll do when they get engaged. I know it will happen. I just don't know what I'm going to do then. It'll hurt me more than anything has before, I know it. And I know that my characters will never get back together. I just want to quit. Except that I don't. Maybe I just want to stop worrying about it every day and stop being sad and stop hurting. MD is just like a curse to me. I wish I could just be happy hanging out with my friends and going to the movies like everyone else.

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Comment by lisa wright on October 25, 2013 at 10:36am

look to jesus christ and he will show u how to get out of it accept him in ur life and ask for forgiveness of sins so that god can have a personal relationship with u  and god will speak to u like he did to me and a few others i know and tell u how to overcome it.i m free from the mdd and since that happened my mind is more clear i am more progressive,happier and my

social life improved

Comment by taffle on July 1, 2013 at 8:21am

A temporary remedy would be to replace your real life characters with fake ones. You could watch some anime on youtube, read some fiction or manga, etc. With fake characters, you have more control over them because they're not real. But it's a temporary solution, if those fake characters are strong enough they can help you detach from those real characters.

Comment by Bee Anchor on June 29, 2013 at 8:23pm

You need a strong reason to stop. Something that is so powerful that  it overrides temporary pleasure of the moment. Know what drives you and start from there. Ask yourself what do you want most from this life?

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