Im new here, as of today. I am also a member of the Yahoo! MD group, but have recently become quite frustrated with it. It annoys me that whilst everyone on the group is happy to talk openly about their MD experience, nobody wants to discuss making the "disorder" more public. I honestly believe that its the only way us lot can be helped, for MD to be thrust into the view of the medical profession. I guess I just personally feel at a dead end. There is no escape from my MD addiction and it…

It seems like everyone else here knows when it started. I have no recollection of a time before this or when the first time would have been.

Unlike many of the other stories I've read, I am not a part of this elaborate, persistant, addictive daydream world. I don't exist in this world in any remote way. It's just a place I create and watch voyeristically with intermittent severity.

This place isn't better than the one I live in. The people who…

I'm Michael Gibson (some of my friends call me "Sparky), I live in Albany Oregon and am 53 yrs old. I've had strong sensory independant imagitive abilities sense childhood, but did not find my daydreams becoming addictive until the late '80's. I've always known that I could not be the only one, but did not find this site until today and I just have to say ... Thank god!

Thank all of you for just being you .. and thanks especially to Cordellia for starting this group. (Chalk one up for…

So lately I've been reading a while lot more. Both books and fanfiction, but the one thing that annoys me the most is that literally after every sentence I have to stop for a few minutes and daydream. If I try to stop myself from daydreaming while reading I seriously become so exhausted!

And it kind of sucks I admit because before I could easily breeze through reading something but now, it takes hours and hours. *sigh*

I'm not gonna lie though, but it gives me a lot of…

Yesterday, I told my mom about this forum. I said "You remember when I used to run around in circles to music when I was a kid?" and she said "You still do that?" I can see how my behavior sounds strange for a 43-year-old. I said "not for three months." The truth is it's been more like 2.5 months, but I thought three sounded better. I don't feel embarrassed about my MD when I talk to new people, but talking to my mom was tough. She got serious and quiet for half a second, which she never…

Exam tomorrow. Prof assigned 178 extra credit problems. Has taken so long to get through less than half of them. Focusing & working in 20 second spurts makes

it so hard to get things done. Been at

this for like 3 days. At this point my

head feels strange & I still have 2 hard sections to get through, but I

just can’t make myself do it. It’s not

even that they’re hard. They just

require a lot of work & my body just aches & wants…

Hi! I'm the webmaster at http://www.daydreamingdisorder.webs.com/

I check on this site every so often, and I remember reading that someone was going to try Vloging about Maladaptive Daydreaming. If anyone has done that, or has set up some other kind of video, I will look at it and may post a link or embed that on my site (if I can figure out exactly how to do it!) Please let me know if someone does start…

Ive been researching guys and there some massive likeness to SPD.....

"Schizoid individuals are also prone to developing pathological reliance on fantasizing activity as concomitant with their withdrawal from the world. Viewed in this fashion, fantasy constitutes a core component of the self-in-exile"

Klein- Disorders of The Self: New Therapeutic Horizons, Brunner and Mazel (1995) p.…

Is there ever going to be seen as “normal” and acceptable to be alone? This is something I’ve had to deal with, and with my 30^th approaching I need to figure out how to not be ashamed of the fact that I have

no friends or family. People always make the assumption that a person has

such things & the looks they give if/when you dare to let it slip that you

don’t are just unreal. In professional settings, things like references

&…

I'm not going to lie, I'm extremely nervous to open up about my disorder, because I feel like a freak. I have been researching on and off for the past year on MD but only recently found all of the information in great detail and I KNOW now that I have it. I guess I just want to get to know everybody and find out what their worlds are like compared to mine.

--BAM

I was encouraged by a friend to check out this site and share my experiences, partially for the purposes of studying this type of daydreaming. My friend and I both wonder if there are others like me - because when I daydream, I am not in my fantasies. Not ever. They are always focused on pairings based in slash fiction. I have a few different pairings I cycle through - I'll stay with one couple for days, weeks, months... then switch to another. I am constantly spinning stories in my head.…