Wow.

Has it really been two years since my last visit to this site?

I used to come on here daily, often just to lurk about and chat. This site helped me through a really rough time in my life… I found this site way-back-when, back when I was suffering from severe depression and thought I was the only one in the universe who was addicted to their own daydreams. This site, and the knowledge that others out there went through the same…

"You want to quiet the noise in your head to solidify that fragile germ of an idea," says Dr. Jung-Beeman at Northwestern.

Here's some advice I used before. If you have a sharp mind, you can daydream all you want ... you will feel good and still have self-control. Play puzzle games (Chess, Sudoku etc...). If you have Facebook search Brain Buddies. It's my favorite game on Facebook.…

I'm done jumping back and forth from blog to blog ranting about things that are bordering off-topic, so I'll just put it all here.

Some say daydreaming is a curse, others say it's a tool. What I say is that it is what you let it become. In my case, it's become a monster, a completely different, intricate and complex dimension that has mixed and stacked with reality. It has free reign on my memories, dictates how I feel, dictates every damned detail of my life, because I unconsciously…

We are usually told that daydreaming is a waste of time and energy and mental power etc... but the ability to daydream gives you flexibility in your daily lives.

Daydreaming isn’t a waste of time, as we’re often told, but the gateway to Creativity, Problem-Solving and even to the realisation of our Potential.

Let me be the example of this; I might be…

For those who use marijuana do you think it effects you. I use to be a social user and it was fine, now I have become a more frequent user and I feel that it makes me depressive. Instead of daydreaming while high I think about the root of my daydreaming addiction. Also I start to over analyze my daydreams and that gives me anxiety and also it makes me harder on my self for being a "crazy person." Let me know your experience with MD and MJ. Does it effect you at all?

I just found out what MD was in December and was not aware that there were other s like me. I worry that my MD will develop into schizophrenia as a become elderly. Similar to when dementia or Alzheimer patients are confused about which reality they are in and minds are often in a different time period. Will I at some point not recognize the difference between reality and my daydreams or will I believe that my daydreams were once my reality? Please let me know if you have the same fears or if…

I got 2 new tattoos this week!  The first is one honoring our beloved Dr. Cynthia Schupak, whom I call "Mom".  She's been like an angel to me.  The other one is just a little heart on my left pinkie.  I now have 9 and plan to get more.  …

I'm going to talk with a reporter about MD tomorrow evening.  I know this is short notice, but is there anything you'd like me to say to her?  

I'm not sure I'm a classic Maladaptive Daydreamer. I don't make up elaborate stories or characters. I used to, but my daydreams or whatever these states are became repetitive monologues. I'm 33 years old (F) and I've never experienced reciprocated romantic love, although I've been constantly in love since age 14, always with someone who did not return my feelings. My daydreams are scary, basically I'm begging the present love of my life to love/hold/stay with/come back to/make love to me. I…

My life has completely evolved from what it was when I last posted on here almost a year ago. Long story short, I am now sick, physically sick, and have had to accept that I will be for the rest of my life. It's all still very new, and I've had to change my entire life style. However, during this process I had to deal with the real world. I had to focus on my health and life and grades, so there was no time to MD. I think that I've gotten way better at handling it, although somedays I do get…

Hi, All.  How is everyone doing?  I'm doing a bit better.  I'm enjoying my tube feeds at night and feeling stronger.  I've lost a bunch of weight and have been having fun enjoying dressing up.  I found some great winter clothes on sale, and every time I go out looking good, I feel so much better.  The other day, I was even photographed for a local news site.  It was very flattering.  I still look fat in the pics, but oh well.  I know I'm doing better.  Today, I went to Target and bought a…

This post, this thing I'm writing now, is the first time I've ever talked about my MD with anyone ever in my life. I'm having anxiety just typing this. 

I've had slight mental disorders my whole life. I've been treated for OCD, ADD, and panic attacks throughout childhood. My MD however, has remained untreated... and a secret. In fact it was only until recently that I even knew I had it until I started doing my own research.

My MD is triggered by Social media, books, movies, TV,…

No matter what the object is, obsessing hurts.   Your head feels like it's too full.  Even when closed, your eyes dart around, trying to focus on something.  You feel disconnected from the people around you.  Laundry feels like absolutely the most pointless activity in the existence of mankind (well, laundry usually feels like that regardless of your mental state).



And it doesn't matter if the obsession is about something ordinarily pleasant, like a daydream or story or a real-life…

Some people say that mdd isn't really addictive. I disagree. My mother refuses to acknowledge that i need to pace as much as she needs to smoke. I was at a bonfire, extrovert mode initiated, when one of my favorite pacing songs came on. I began trembling and crossed my arms, clawing on them with my nails. I felt like screaming, i naturally began walking in circles. I knew i was pacing, but i couldn't stop. My daydream was of holli being yelled at by lindsey for embarrassing her in public by…

Ok, I've been daydreaming since I was very young. However, it became serious in the sixth grade. I was bullied a lot and only had one friend. The reason I was bullied, mainly, is because I'm a lesbian. I made a journal about a different life in which I was married to a woman named Mollie (I just liked the name, I guess). Everyday I would write and write, it was all I would do. In class I'd think about her and the life I thought I would never have. I realized how odd it was one day to be…