hey after doing some research i found out i have md so far i have a hole lot of triggers and finding way to fix this is road fulled with all type of things. its very hard to do this day after  day to say in reality i know the difference between what going on in my head and what happen in the real world but i can stop going in my head.i smoke cannabis and it help to keep me focused but for how long...........

I am feeling from a very long time that I have a very low self esteem. I am not consistent , I have lack of planning and I am a complete person of failure . I feel that with the passage I am completely lost in real world. Nothing new , nothing interesting .I never get interested in any activity and if I take any interest I lose my interest very quickly

 I am feeling that I am drowning in water and there is no light , no hope o courage only pain and depression .No one is going to help…

I am a student and I ' m 19 years old I have suffering from this since my childhood.I am usually day dreaming abut love , pride,success and it's rare that I think about any fictional charac ter.

Anyways it is not any important thing what I want to know about from mdd community is that  dd cause any hurdle in reading because I am suffering from this and it's really difficult to concentrate in studies :(

The line between reality and something else. I can tell when my illness is getting worse. Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder is an illness, not an excuse to waste your life fantasizing about what you will never have the will to try. But to me it is most diffidently an illness. Does the depression come from the worsening MDD or does it cause the depression? I don’t know. But when you walk outside and the…

Hi, for as long as I was 13, i enjoyed making up stories in my head, then I would start running and making faces.  My parents laughed at me, friends thought i was crazy and i was bullied and humiliated. I thought it was ok since I would use it be a great writer someday. Now I am 26, still running and talking to myself and dreaming about manga and tv shows. I don't have the talent to be a writer and my dreams are nothing more than rehashed versions of tv shows and characters from manga. I am…

I'm fifteen and I  lost my  mom, who was my main parent, late last month. It's been an insanely fast-changing last few weeks, with everything as small as my allowance and as big as  my home and family is changing drastically. I've written two small little things about my experiences which I would like to share with you guys. These things are very personal, so you better feel special.

The first thing I'll show you is something I wrote today in my Creative Writing class. It was a…

I think I could quit this whole daydreaming thing.  I've quit it before.  Well, sort of.  I had one foot in the wagon and one off, and performed awkward jumping jacks in that position.   



But I'm scared.  



There are three poles in my existence, and I pinball from one to the other: anxiety, depression, and daydreams. Anxiety scares me out of the daydreams.  Sometimes the anxiety feels like a savior, because it feels good to care about other people. 



But right…

Wednesday morning I had another Nissen Fundoplication (stomach wrapped around my esophagus) to correct GERD (AKA Acid Reflux Disease).  I appreciate all the support and well-wishes.  I'm told it went well.  I had another reaction to the anesthetic.  It was nothing dangerous, but I just felt horribly itchy all over and had to be given medicine for that.  I had the same reaction to the pain med, but at least I remembered to take down the name of it, so if I need pain management again I can…

I haven't been on here in a long time and I feel like things have kind of gotten worse for me

When I don't daydream or when I think about too many 'real life' things, I get anxious and irritable. I feel disconnected from myself/the world. I don't feel like any of this is actually happening and I don't know if I believe that I exist/the world exists

I always feel disconnected/depersonalized but if I don't daydream, it's so much worse. Daydreams are simultaneously the only good…

[Hey.  New here.  Below, is a vent.  Thanks for reading my vent.]



I want to stop living in my head, I told my friend, even if that means having to cut out music, television, and whatever else triggers these fictional worlds.  My friend encouraged me.  



With things inside my head less interesting, I'd be forced to make my real-life more interesting, I reasoned.  I decided to try getting involved in activities that my fictional characters became involved in.  One…

Last night, i dreamt of wildminds. In my dreams, wm was a place, based in cordellia's house (which was very small in my dream) i stayed a few nights, grendel and mia were mild mannered jaguars. Another member came by, saw me, and told me that, despite my age, she would treat me the same as if i were older than her. I am only 15.

I am not very active here. My bad! Like most dreamers, i am happy with a small circle of friends, and see no need to return to the horde after i can contact them elsewhere. I then develop a strong bond with said people on facebook, skype, etc., wather than here. I will not mention the member's names unless they so choose to tak  credit via a comment, but my inner circle of friends all know the names and details. I, along with my friends, have had a horrible past couple of weeks. Sexual…

I haven't posted anything for a while, today I tried to post a reply and it says my message will have to be approved. Does inactivity put you on probation?

Im 15 and I've had maladaptive daydreaming for as long as I can remember. I was a happy child and it never bothered me how much I daydreamed. Throughout middle school it was my way of coping if something went wrong. It was how I dealt with boredom and through it I could think out new situations to deal with my current problems. Recently (5-6 months) I've been having symptoms of depression and my maladaptive daydreaming became less and less and now its just gone. I am so lost. My head feels…

Remember the surgery I had almost a year ago and almost died from complications of?  I'm having it again on Wednesday.

I'm sure those complications are rare.  I hope it goes well.

Anyway, I'll be away from the site for a couple of days.  If anyone needs anything, message me, and I'll respond when I get back.

I'm not entirely sure if I'm the only one, but does having MMD make you indecisive about certain things in your life?

Recently, I've been having second thoughts about what I want to do with my life. I am going to be starting my Sophomore year in college in a week, and I' am happy about my current majors, but I'm entirely confused on what direction to take while studying my majors (I'm a double major).

For as long as I could remember I've had this one daydream, that has…

In 2009, before I even started this site, I agreed to live completely openly about my Maladaptive Daydreaming.  It was scary at first, but it's actually been very cathartic.  I've told friends, doctors, professors, and anyone else who would listen.  Almost everyone was completely fine with it.  They didn't all understand, but most of them were open and at least tried.  Some could relate immediately.

Recently one of my old classmates started a Facebook group just for people who…

In the past couple of weeks I have been seeing a doctor for major depression, anxiety - especially social anxiety disorder. I also fit the profile of someone with an avoidant personality. When i was discussing my symptoms to the doctor I described my excessive compulsion to fantasize, how i pace, and how i can't focus sometimes because my urge to daydream is so powerful. My doctor didn't seem as interested in Maladaptive Daydreaming but assumed it was an aspect of being socially avoidant. I…

A day or two ago, I made a blog post about my mom's illness and how we didn't think she'd make it. Here's the update.

Yesterday, they decided to take her off life support at 4pm. I went up to the hospital before they took her off life support and hung with family and went in to see her one last time. They took her off life support at 4pm, and she died at around 10pm. 

It's now official that I'm staying with my mom's best friend, Brooklyne, and her  family. My oldest brother,…