Hell everyone. I am a 17 year old guy that is basically the the brinks right now. I think I am running out of options . I am not doing well at all. Falling at everything, at school. I have no friends at all. Well I thought I did but not really anyone close at all. I went to a school dance and basically did nothing there at all. Just sat down and my well friend I coukdn't go up and speak to her and she didn't try to come after me. She ignores me when I speak to her anyway at times. I just…

I'll try to resume what has been said in the long phonecall I had concerning treatment for MDD. A lot of things were said but maybe not in that order, anyhow, here's a resume.

The root of the cause, at least in my personal case (and I think it's right) would be a heightened sensitivity, probably processing physical sensations and the outer world differently. Also, in my case I am someone with a high baseline, existential anxiety, I don't feel at ease with the world. When…

Yesterday I wasted another day completely in DDs and on facebook. So, I typed it all out in an email and I sent it to a friend who is a mental health care worker, because I just couldn't do it anymore. I don't know how I am going to get myself where I want to be if I'm constantly being hijacked by my own head. I was panicking at the fact I had done nothing at all that day, and that cranked my DDing up even more. So I told them.

Their reaction was really awesome. They told me…

     If your walls could talk what would they say? The walls of my childhood bedrooms would tell a story of a seemingly normal boy, regular life, loving family, but he partook in an odd ritual. He had no other mental problems, was happy, had friends but still - did this one weird thing. This is my story on Maladaptive Daydreaming (MD) and how I have been engaging in it for twenty years, to different degrees. I will post this in various forums dealing with the subject and I hope it brings new…

One of my daydreams involved me dancing at a party with friends. So I would have earphones in and loud music playing and I would switch off the lights in my bedroom and essentially enter into another world. Usually a party or music festival. A lot of the people in this daydream would be people from school or wherever. I would dance away in my room for hours. I would often be the centre of attention for something or the other. 

Anyway, during these years I was never…

I was trying to think about when I started daydreaming, and like everyone, I did it a lot as a kid. Up until I was around 12-13, I used to sit in class and daydream because I was bored out of my mind, or on the playground because I didn't have many friends. I usually Mary-Sued myself in an existing world, I can divide my life into which world I was preoccupied with and living part-time in. 

However, there were several times in my life when I didn't daydream. Between 14 and 18 years, I…

Paradise

This post here was initially just a comment which I wanted to leave under my last post, but then it all just exploded and I decided to make it a separate post.

First of all, I wanted to thank you all for the replies in my previous posts. I want you to know that I really appreciate that you're reading these short texts and that you share your own experience - it's somehow empowering. Surprisingly.

It feels nice to know that I'm not alone with this, that there are other people…

i wrote this, but few seem to be interested. hoping it will be different here. true story, any dd's are actual dd's i had in an hour te day this happened.

I hope Mom doesn't show up

We were backstage, standing in suspense, while we waited for our competitor’s dance to end. They had been going for almost five minutes, and their performance was soon going to end. Lindsey and I had our violins ready to go, Aspen had his guitar ready, Percy fiddled with his…

I decided to write this post instead of plunging into my daydreams.

I'm writing this post, because I feel frustrated.

I'm about to fall apart. Not the first time and definitely not the last.

I've wasted a week on daydreaming. Instead of doing research for my dissertation, looking for a job, preparing for jobi nterviews, writing a personal statement for my postgraduate application, studying for my courses to make most of this last semester of my undergrad studies,…

I often doubt how to start blogs, so I decided not to write an introduction to this one and just jump ahead into it. 

I'm struggling a lot lately and I'm feeling hammered by guilt as I'm - again - not able to focus on anything else but my head. I know I have this capacity to let myself be totally submerged into a task, get into it, grind and "wake up" a few hours later, being proud of what I achieved. But it does not seem to work for my job.

I don't often dream…

Yesterday I was talking to my friend about MD for the first time, and he said that he had the EXACT same condition! He showed me all his journals and maps, and he actually constructed his own language awhile back and he can speak it fluently! I was amazed that I knew someone not online that went through the same I did!

Another case was a couple years back on a backpacking trip, my friend told me his entire DD plotline, (which was incredibly intense and awesome, basically Star…

 A few years ago I "broke-down" crying to my mom, telling her how  I hated myself, how terrible things were for me and how at that point in time I didn't want to live anymore. She completely blew me off. It took a lot of time for me to build up the confidence to do so, so you can imagine the damage it did when my efforts were not at all reciprocated by an appropriate response. She would tell me things are going to be okay, that I should calm down, and then she would get frustrated and yell…

I'm curious if anyone else experiences these symptoms.

1. Impatience

(When dealing with people, and the rules of the world. I find myself rushing people to finish what they're saying. I sometimes finish their sentences for them. I just don't feel like waiting for people to talk, take action or whatever it is they're doing)

2. Psychic or 6th Sense. A supreme feeling of being smarter than "normal" people. Premonitions, predictions,…

(This is a story that I lost interest in halfway through, and it vividly depicts life in one city from my DD. Share your own work and critique mine! :D)

                The graffiti on the side of the graying depilated brick office complex…

Hi there,

about 3 months ago somebody mentioned ADD to me, I read about it and discovered I had every trait associated with it except for one: often being too late at appointments. It still does happen to me that I forget about one, but it's rare. Here are the other traits:

-concentration problems

-motivation problems

-being dreamy or thinking a lot

-(therefore) being more passive

-trouble making choices

All these things are…

(General Caesar North, the last real hope for restoring the Union)

My daydream's plot is getting more and more complex. I've added over 20 new minor and maybe major characters to the current events going on in the Western Union.

(These…

I was given the number 15.  Like and/or comment on my status, and I will give you a number. Here are 15 little-known and/or "interesting" things about me: 

1) I've spent most of my life in a fantasy world, which has given me a unique perspective on life.

2) I have 9 tattoos and plan to get more. I have my cats' portraits tattooed on my arms.

3)I've almost died multiple times, and my friend and apartment manager both saved my life when…

My most recent daydreams have been permeated by this country called the Western Union, formed over 1000 years after the fall of the United States by a Kennedian merchant who wanted a "wall" between the FSK and the unknown west. The merchant brought together over 30 small republics and tribes in the North American Great Plains region to form a long and narrow nation whos…