So I haven't posted in such a long time, mostly because of school demands etc. But I thought I'd share that I've been seeing a psychologist for a while about my daydreaming. At first it was really scary opening up to someone about it, but now it actually feels really good to have someone to share it with. It certainly hasn't stopped or reduced the daydreaming, but it's helped me understand a little better why I do it and how I can manage it :)

I apologize in advance for my poor spelling and grammar -  I wrote this pretty hurriedly.

My last post was about how I wanted to get help, well I did. My mom took me to my GP, and apparently just from looking at me she could tell how despondent I was - so she referred me to a psychologist and I've had two sessions so far - one last monday and one this monday. 

As some of you may know, I originally wanted to get either some sort of general neuro evaluation or…

There is a huge part of my depression, and MDD, that is so hard and shamful for me to talk about. I havent even brought it up to my therapist yet. Ive tried, but i dont think she gets it. I hope no one reading this will, think im disgusting and weird. But i would really like to know if anyone else struggles with this.

With both depression and MDD, people talk a lot about being traped, and lack of motivation. With these symptoms, i have always struggled with hygeien and…

Hello everyone, 

I am a new member, and like many others very relieved to find out that I am not alone. Since I was a child I have been living in my own fantasy world, daydreaming about many cool adventures. Unfortunately I cannot remember why or how I created the world, there are even rules in it that I cannot easily change or remove. 

The odd thing is, 2 years ago I was unable to use the world. You know in those movies where they discover ruins of an ancient city? It was…

This week was hugely stressful, a big big part of the report I had to hand in for work was needed. I was persuaded I had screwed myself over forever and wouldn't make it but I did.

Also, things are starting to happen. I have lengthened my meditation to 15 minutes two times a day and I realise that I feel more in touch with things. For example, I have started to feel hungry again. Otherwise I'm either OMG-feed-me-i'm-fainting or not feeling anything. I'm also getting tired and…

(The all out assault on the Uzahn capitol of Kingsland at the conclusion of the Western Wars, and civilized world)

This is what I believe to be the final parts of my very very long daydream.

The Western Wars is the conflict between the largest of my nations. One one side is the Freestate of Kennedy, Asteriskia, the Western Union, and Queensland…

(Map of the South Empire in its reclusive stage during the American blockade)

This is a nation from my daydreams.

The South Empire started off as the last vestiges of the formerly glorious Hoffman Empire (it's full official name is "the Southern Extent of the Hoffman Empire"). When Heather Hoffman was killed, this part of the empire was unexplored by…

So, last week was harder. I was not at my own place most of the time (I have a boyfriend) and when I'm at his  place it's hard to find a way to meditate. I tried to do it lying in bed in the morning but I just fell asleep again, so it wasn't very useful. I felt less productive than last week as well.

I also had quite severe backlash. When I don't daydream for a while, and suddenly I can, it just goes totally overboard. I was once again walking into traffic, not really noticing…

It's been some time since I've updated everyone with my status, and I apologize for that. Since I last posted, I've put the emotions from my daydreams towards books, having published my first this past summer, and am about to publish my second in a week on my seventeenth birthday. I do not use my plots to create my books, in fear that someone who knows about my mental health would make the connection. I do not wish to have them know what thoughts travel through my mind. I know that may be…

Almost two weeks ago I had an appointment with Ψ and they decided it is high time we do things instead of just talking. The first task was to write down all the advantages and disadvantages of my clandestine life.  With one simple gesture I unveiled the dark side of the world so dear to me -  I deconstructed my little paradise, piece by piece. To my surprise, finding a counterbalance turned out to be a daunting task.

I realized that my world, that…

I hesitated to put treatment between brackets since it is basically just meditation and yoga and some other exercise. But, for me it's a form of treatment, so I'd rather keep calling it that way. 

Squeezing some time in for meditation has been hard. I try to do 10 minutes in the morning and 10 in the evening, that seems to work best. It's very hard not to drift off, and I tend to drift off (1) thinking about things I have to do that day, (2) daydreaming. When I'm doing (1), I…

(The map above is to the Free State of Kennedy, or the FSK, it is by far the smallest capitol in the world.)…

Hey guys, 

I feel that I often forget to mention facts about myself, which might be important for why I DD...

I live in a suburb of Chicago, Illinois.

I will be graduating in a couple of months to begin to study as a teacher.

I have traveled to over 50 countries and I love this world that we live in, making me a massive environmentalist. (I set my daydreams in places I've been to)

I've lived in Singapore for a little bit as a…

Hell everyone. I am a 17 year old guy that is basically the the brinks right now. I think I am running out of options . I am not doing well at all. Falling at everything, at school. I have no friends at all. Well I thought I did but not really anyone close at all. I went to a school dance and basically did nothing there at all. Just sat down and my well friend I coukdn't go up and speak to her and she didn't try to come after me. She ignores me when I speak to her anyway at times. I just…