i can't believe it's been almost a year since i last posted on here

i turn 18 next month and am starting college this fall, which is absolutely terrifying, but i'm dealing with it.

yes, i still have md-- it's the same as before and i guess it took me so long to post this because i haven't really had anything to say about it. i still pace, i still have the same characters, nothing new.

one thing that i was thinking about, though, is that i have had the same characters…

Before I start, I would like to blatantly say that the things I will put here are things that help me. I am not instructing people on how to control their daydreams, although what helps me could possibly help you. I am not writing this to let people know what will help them. Everyone has their own way of dealing with it, but I know it's hard to begin thinking about how to stop them or just control how often you daydream, so hopefully this post…

Hi everyone

I needed to write this blog to vent out, everything with me seems so f*****g messed up and I don't know what to do anymore. I'm sad, lonely and afraid and it's all because of this f*****g anxiety which is like a demon hellbent on ripping my life to shreds and keeping me in a state of eternal suffering. 

This week has been good, I went to a house party on Saturday with my friends and a few others and it was an awesome night that dragged on til' 6AM.…

Does anyone else have this where every once in a while, like perhaps once in a few months, my attachment to my characters, the settings, and stories, and their lives become intense. It's this... sickly feeling, like I'm on the verge of tearing up and I just HAVE to indulge in it hardcore. Find all the media related to my characters, listen to all the right songs etc.. It's like looking at a super beautiful painting with raw emotion, or a beautiful song. I'm writing this because I'm going…

hey everyone! i haven't been online much but there is something that i really wanted to share with someone and since i don't have anyone close enough to discuss this with i am sharing this on this website.

so basically i have been suffering from depression along with md for i long time now(im 18 by the way) and i have had suicidal thoughts for a while now. my result comes out tommorow and have been anxious for my marks. this year before my finals i was so stressed about my…

         I feel like i'm losing some of my friends because I almost always want to be locked up in my room with no distractions so I can daydream. And get me right, I want to have friends I feel kinda selfish for it but whenever I can be alone I usually want to. My other fantasy life is very important to me and I want to change it. I don't remember when I started making up another life in my head but I have an idea that it was when I was going through one of the toughest things I been…

I have been wondering about this for as long as I can remember.

Nothing helps to ease this anxiety that most people are jerks, argumentative, and critical of every fiber of my being mainly because of pure jealousy about something that has to do with me or they think that I feel like I am superior to them and they are not worth my time. I don't know. But whatever the case, ALOT of people I come across, whom I never even seen before, really seem to have it out for…

Ever wonder what exact thoughts go through a "normal" person's brain throughout the entire day, from waking up to work to coming home, etc.? I've gotten so used to the way I think, I have no idea what "normal" people think about on a regular basis. I wish I could ask someone without MD what their thoughts are 24/7 for an entire day. 

I'm suppose to be writing a paper that is due in the morning. But for some reason, I cant. There is some reason I am afraid to, and I don't know why. Especially because I know that the consequences are much worse than staying up all night to write this paper. Something ive always known about me is that hitting rock bottom isn't enough. I don't know what is. And that scares me. Im so desperate for change. I don't know why it is SO INCREDIBLY hard for me to do things that I even want to do. I…

I used to be fearful to speak about my daydreams, but i have fully emb.raced it. Nowadays, i cannot stop talking about it, despite sneering. What do i dream of? I dream of a world where aliens have discovered earth, and humans have been "enslaved".well, not really. These aliens are so intellegent, that we have become animals in their eyes. When someone is "taken" to live as pet, they become "tamed" by the tkme you are tamed, you actually love this life. J would love anyone to come up and ask…

So I often wrote about treatment and I was taking it serious for more or less a month then shit hit the fan. Now it's getting increasingly bad, so I took my phone and rang my general practitioner for a visit. I can't function, at all, I have not been able to work for more or less a month now and I just don't manage anymore. So the hunt for a therapist and a psychiatrist starts again, and I hope my gp will write me home for a few days just so I can cry out and collect myself instead of…

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I believe that in order to be considered a true daydreamer, one has to be stuck in the minutia of the details of their dreams. My dreamworld is so vivid to me that I can clearly picture just walking down a street in one of my cities and know exactly what to expect. …

I don't know too much about Maladaptive Daydreaming as I've not long heard about it. I've done a bit of research on it and I think I got the main idea of what it's all about. I couldn't help but feel that when I was reading on that I'd say things like..

''That sound like me.'' or ''That's what I do.''

To be honest, I'm glad it's an actual thing because for so long I thought that I can't be the only person who does this. That there has gotta be…

OK I guess I'll just share my story with you guys. I've always been a really imaginative kid so I've always daydreamed throughout my childhood but it only started to be a problem this year. I would listen to music and stand in front of my mirror and just daydream for 2-3 hours. I would make facial expressions or even cry sometimes during these daydreams. My mom has walked in on me before and it was pretty embarassing. Since I realised tat its unhealthy for me to be doing this I have stopped…

Hi. I am obviously new to this site. Not really all that great at introductions(even in this cyber-reality known simply as the internet).

Uh....I have been trying to really figure out just what is wrong with me(mentally) ever since I was about 15. Yesterday, I think I was on the verge of a major nervous-breakdown. I only ate once the whole day at night and did not shower until way late at night(which is unusual for me even if I feel weak from my physical illnesses, because I…

Why do we daydream? Why do we make up characters and interact with them in the scenarios we choose? This question has been puzzling me for sometime and I think I now finally have an answer. As humans we thrive on human interaction, somewhere out there they're is someone at a party having the best of times. He/she is surrounded by the people they love interacting with and all is good in their minds. I think we daydream because we are lonely in a various amount of ways. Some of us truly have…

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I probably should have guessed that pacing around for hours on end obsessing over events and people that exist only in my mind wasn’t normal. I did have some suspicions, but I never thought my habit of ‘thinking’ was something like MD. I’ve had an active imagination my entire life, but I don’t think it was excessive until I was about eight years old, maybe a bit younger. Nothing traumatic happened…

I made a YouTube video at the beginning of my daydreaming "cleanse." I just quit right there and then. Awhile after that video was created, I went four days without daydreaming at all and I was very productive, but then after those four days I spent six days daydreaming a lot. …