every once and a while i come back and think about posting here so i was reading my old posts and was kind of surprised at how different i am now

im happier than ever i guess, which is weird because im kind of at a terrible inescapable place in my life and im more mentally ill than ever, but w/e. i was reading about how i hated my mental illnesses and i just.... dont feel that way at all anymore??? ive sort of become part of a community for psychotic ppl + schizophrenia spectrum ppl…

Hello everyone!

I've been around this website for quite a while now, I don't post very often but I often read what you guys post!

I've already shared this questionnaire a couple of months ago in order to gather your experiences as Maladaptive Daydreamers and I'm glad to say that we received way more answers than we expected. 

We expected around 200 anwers and we have received more than 370. I'd like to thank all of you for participating and sharing the questionnaire. Now…

(I've been on this site since 2012 and this is my first blog post...shame, shame *rings bell*)

My daydreams have followed the same characters since 2005...even before my daydreaming evolved into its more intense MD form that it is now. My DDs revolve around one tv show, one that thankfully is quite successful and is still running after 10 years (the newest installment starts next year!).

Like a lot of others I've seen on the forum, I like my DDs to be as…

this is the 4th account i made on this site, i always stop logging in for a while then come back and forget my password.

i haven't been on here in like months, so the first thing i did when i opened this site was to read my old blog posts and after i read them i felt so proud.

 i still do daydream, like, i always make up scenarios for events i have coming, and i daydream before falling asleep and i'm okay with that because a year ago it was so much worse, i used to spend my…

So I am in my early 30s. I am currently attending college online and trying desperately to turn my writing into a small bit of income. Unfortunately my financial aid has been the only aid I have in paying for my computer, internet access and all the other needed stuff to keep attending class. I can't pay any of that without the financial aid.  The MD, compiled with the fact I have no medical and see my doc through the aid of a local non profit group means I get only basic care . I get the…

It is so difficult to acknowledge how bad my maladaptive daydreaming is that I have had multiple fantasies where I got to a medical office, sit on a couch and talk about it. My fantasies are actively taking themselves to the doctor. And yet I can't get there.



Sometimes I feel like I fight my fantasies for control. It becomes almost related to self-esteem in a way... The person I enact in my fantasies is so valuable to the characters around her/me, but I am not valuable to the…

I'm taking Rexetin and Frontin for depression now. My sleep-pattern got better, and I feel better, but I'm not sure if it's because of the pills or because it's the summer and now my life is not as stressfull. I also moved out, so at least I got away from my parents, which is brilliant, even if I have to live with 8 other girls in a dormitory full of mold and trash. I got a summer job, and it's okay, I wish I could get enough money so I don't have to move back home...

 I seem to be sleepy all the time. I just want to lay down. It is the only time my brain shuts up. Sleep. A rest from the mental clutter I’ve had lately. Like an introvert in a crowd of talking people. My mind gets so noisy I just want to scream “shut up!” How to find a quiet place.

This post is really just for me, but I think it is important that I write it. It has to do with my life in general, not just MD.

Lately, I have been thinking about how different my life is now from how it was even a year or two ago. While I still DD, and it affects my life in a big way, I think it is important to look at all of the progress that I have made.

I have been daydreaming for as long as I can remember. For a period of time, in middle and early high school, it became…

A few weeks a young lady made comments about me that really hurt me and are the main reason I think I started daydreaming in the first place. 

She says “we (her and the other three girls) are sometimes excited, we get angry we get irritable but you…you are always (she tries to find the right words…moving her hand horizontally across the air like a flat plane), you are always neutral.” She explains what she means. Throughout this I want to start crying. I know what…

i have a difficult time visualizing my characters, so when i decided i wanted to attempt a series of novels, i knew i needed visuals. please message me the drawings or post them here for all to see. i will include a photo (if the character is based on a real person), a description, and a personality profile. 

Holli Daze last image.

based off of me. five foot two. longer, wavier hair. olive eyes and on the skinnier side. there should be a futuristic "collar"…

I have written a new blog post on my music blog where I attempt to clarify my understanding of how (and why) music acts on daydreams.

The full post is at http://whatismusic.info/blog/MusicTheThirdReality.html, but I can summarize the essential points that would be of most interest to all the day-dreamers here:

• Music is like an alternative reality that causes us to have a "special connection" to it.…

So my dog died last night while we were stopping by a family member's house to let their dogs outside. We came home to learn she had suffocated, and all attempts to resuscitate her had failed. There are only a few things on Earth that are precious to me, and she was one of them. Now, I suppose she's not much different from my dream characters - alive in my thoughts and memories, but out of reach.

It's going to be rough for a while, but I know it was a freak accident…

Hi friends well our problem is that we cant control our mind .If we are able to control our stream of thoughts we control our mind and if control our mind we control our life.

I have attended a meditation camp which was a 10 days residential meditation camp. Vipassana meditation was the technique of meditation.In this we are taught  how to control our thought and become more focused in our life.The vipassana mediation camp which i attended it was free of cost. You will be given…

Time to catch my breath before it all starts over, and maybe a chance for progress on my path of stumbling blocks.

The issue of disconnecting from Nyre was gradual. I can't point at one specific event as the cause. Rather, things here and there that drove up stress on either side seemed to contribute.

When no one knew about Nyre - not even Autumn - the connection was crystal clear. I suppose something similar happened when she found out. Her…