It is so difficult to acknowledge how bad my maladaptive daydreaming is that I have had multiple fantasies where I got to a medical office, sit on a couch and talk about it. My fantasies are actively taking themselves to the doctor. And yet I can't get there.



Sometimes I feel like I fight my fantasies for control. It becomes almost related to self-esteem in a way... The person I enact in my fantasies is so valuable to the characters around her/me, but I am not valuable to the…