Where wild minds come to rest
It is so difficult to acknowledge how bad my maladaptive daydreaming is that I have had multiple fantasies where I got to a medical office, sit on a couch and talk about it. My fantasies are actively taking themselves to the doctor. And yet I can't get there.
Sometimes I feel like I fight my fantasies for control. It becomes almost related to self-esteem in a way... The person I enact in my fantasies is so valuable to the characters around her/me, but I am not valuable to the people around me in my life? I know I am! I do some really exciting work and yet I spend all this time absorbed in an entirely different state! So frustrating! I want to control it.
I don't know who could help me. I don't really have a doctor and... how would I even begin to explain this? How do other people get help? Where do you start?