Where wild minds come to rest
This week was hugely stressful, a big big part of the report I had to hand in for work was needed. I was persuaded I had screwed myself over forever and wouldn't make it but I did.
Also, things are starting to happen. I have lengthened my meditation to 15 minutes two times a day and I realise that I feel more in touch with things. For example, I have started to feel hungry again. Otherwise I'm either OMG-feed-me-i'm-fainting or not feeling anything. I'm also getting tired and excited again naturally which was just "not there" for so long. I still feel anxious a lot but now that the big part of the report is over, that's slightly better.
I still daydream a lot, getting on time at work is a struggle, falling asleep happens only when I am totally exhausted from daydreaming. Still, I find that I am able to "switch" more easily. I have been able a few times this week to shake myself up and do what needs to be done, like laundry and such, without daydreaming. Also, Friday, for the first time in like, forever, I sat down and started to work immediately. No half hour of thinking, daydreaming or procrastinating. I felt good and active and even tackled mails I was avoiding sending. I'm still drawing a lot on the train, and writing down my daydreams instead of just putting them on repeat. So I would say I deffinitely see some progress.