Finally told someone

[Ivy White]

Yesterday I wasted another day completely in DDs and on facebook. So, I typed it all out in an email and I sent it to a friend who is a mental health care worker, because I just couldn't do it anymore. I don't know how I am going to get myself where I want to be if I'm constantly being hijacked by my own head. I was panicking at the fact I had done nothing at all that day, and that cranked my DDing up even more. So I told them.

Their reaction was really awesome. They told me immediately they were glad I had told someone, and that they were treating a few people who had that as well in their hospital. I was happy they took it seriously, but even more that they were actually treating some people already. They also told me that there were therapies and treatment. We will meet up soon and then have a chat to consider options and what I could do.

Once that was off my chest I managed to work a little bit, and in the evening I even did some yoga. However, I daydreamt way too late at night and woke up this morning, and instead of going back to sleep, I started daydreaming. I might have slept 5 hours, but not much more. I have bags under my eyes so big that they wouldn't be allowed on a plane and I'm completely exhausted. This is going to be a tough day.

[Alexis Faith]

Let us know what they recommended for you

[Elizabeth]

I am glad you found someone who is so willing to help you like this! I am also lucky in a similar way: I have a very close friend who was the first person I told about my MDD. Her father works in treating illnesses (both physical and mental) in a rather unique way (meaning they are pretty opposed to over-medicating or medicating without knowing the full extent/cause of the problem), and she has been an enormous help. Sometimes you really just need someone to talk to :)

[Ivy White]

Yes Amanda, I was surprised too! It gives me hope, and I will keep on posting about the treatment and everything here.

Floris,as  for my triggers, I don't know why DD is worse some days.  It's weird, on good, productive days I eat properly, I do some yoga and I manage to concentrate and have some willpower, on bad days I don't. I don't know if I don't have willpower because I haven't done yoga or eaten properly, or if it's the opposite, I can't be arsed to eat properly because I have no willpower left.

[Floris]

Sounds like a good start to change things for the better. Just curious what triggered you this time Ivy? And what happens on a good, productive, succesful day, what do you do then?

[Amanda Lewone]

Wow, that's awesome! I am also surprised to hear that they are already someone with something similar. I haven't done anything all day (maybe 15 min of research so far).  Hopefully you will be able to post your progress!