Okay, so I have a Tumblr account, and I basically can't stop going on there (I've only had it for what, two, two and a half months?) and it's annoying because I'm spending most of my time on there. I've done the same thing with other sites, another social networking site, Neopets, Spartzmedia and stuff, where as soon as I'd get home I'd hop on those sites.

Today, I caught up with the stuff on my Tumblr dash then posted a post, telling everyone I'm not allowed on there for over a week,…

I probably should have written this when I was actually feeling this, but I'll try my best to explain how I was feeling a few days ago.

Every week or so I have what i call 'self-hatred attacks'. This is where I process my faults, normally my DDing, and start despairing and thinking about all the goals I have which I'm not going to reach (or so I think) because I spent all my time DDing. I convince myself that I will never change and will just waste my potential and end up dying…

im seeing a counsellor or therapist or whatever tommorow. My moms making me go because a month ago i had a break down and said i hated myself wanted to kill myself. heh. 

I know what I want to say about that, how should i bring up md? How should I tell her? How do I explain without her thinking its schizophrenia?  should I show her pictures ive drawn or posts from this site? 

So I've asked a few people in chat on here in the past, but no one that's related. I have an extremely hard time talking to people on chat because I start pacing or daydreaming what I'm going to say, and then the convo has moved on. Does anyone else have this problem?

I…

Hello...

So i just got to let this out. I don't want to stop DDing, ever. It's like its who I am. I've been DDing since as long as i can remember even a toddler. When i was about 3 or for I told my mom about "my world" of course im a little kid she thought This was normal to play and pretend and talk to imaginary friends. But now I'm 20... and my 'world' is still there.. Of course she doesn't know this. around 8 years old i realized I wasnt normal.

anywho, to the point. I've…

I didn't have a horrible child hood. I wasn't abused or anything. my parents were divorced. To this day at 22 I want a closer relationship with my dad. I see him often but the relationship is lacking. I constantly have an attitude but inside I'm so stoked to be around my father. I started DD when i was about 8-9. I was someone else. My mother(in my fantasy) was gorgeous,affectionate and i was the golden child. My father in my fantasy was handsome..loving i guess..but his character never…

Hello everyone! I'm Shelly and I think I have figured out all the reasons I DD.

1. I'm overweight and always have been. I was teased and taunted mercilessly as a child and have still been bullied as an adult. I think I come off as being too nice to people and that causes them to feel they can walk over me.

2. I suffer from an embarrassing skin condition that is caused from my skin rubbing together and it has caused me major depression and has made me fear sexual…

admit it.  you've had numerous sex scenes in your daydream, I do.



Though I find it awkward and creepy, I feel like im just....watching. Some characters have more sex scenes than others, some characters I just dont want to see that. Im not in my own daydream so i dont like, watch myself have sex with someone (oh god) there just 2 characters having sex and ya sometimes i feel weird .When i was younger i was paranoid people could read my mind and see im thinking about my…

What about all the time spent dding: Does anyone feel like they are betraying life?  Sometimes I do.....  I have spent the past week dding EVERY WHERE!  We have already discussed dding while driving.  Well I have been doing it at work, when driving and even while having sex. 

Are we betraying our "REAL" life and "REAL" loved ones?  HELP!

I have been having a hard time lately (emotionally) so I think it has triggered my overwhelming dding lately.  It's the only…

I have to admit I'm not a fan of the whole "verify that you are a REAL person" process on here, but I understand that online spam can be a problem.  Just the same, some of us don't possess the courage that Cordellia Rose has shown by identifying herself as a Maladaptive Daydreamer.   The rest of the world simply doesn't take this topic seriously at all, and I don't believe it will anytime soon. 

I'm at the 4 decade mark, and I NEVER directly discussed this with anybody.  I know I put…

Hey everyone!

I'm quite new here. I made an account a little while back, however this is my first post. I would just like to say thank you to everyone on this site, as well as the creators of the site itself. It's a relief to finally find somewhere which explains my life so well. Although I have not been diagnosed with MD, looking through all the symtoms I realised that…

Okaay so a while back I started painting again (I hadn't painted for about a year before that 'cause I painted only for art then didn't do art) and so I'm part way through my fourth picture (though I had to start again 'cause I screwed up badly from the beginning) and I did notice, even in year 11, (the last year I did art) that I didn't really fantasize while painting, only regular thinking, and maybe a bit of talking-in-my-head to a character* and today, I got up late and spent a total of…

I believe the best thing which could have happened to me has happened--and that's the realization that I am not alone. There are others like me. Real people,  chained to their own fantasy worlds. For the longest time I thought that I was the only one, that no one would understand. It is just such a... Well, there are no words in the English language which can describe the immense relief I feel at knowing there are people out there who won't look at me as if I'm…

OK, I'll try not to go stream-of-consciousness in introducing myself, but like most of the people I've come across here, I've been vividly daydreaming since I can remember - one of my earliest, if not the earliest memory, is of me daydreaming out loud as a four or five-year old and then being told by my father that he could hear me and that I needed to go to sleep. Ever since then, I have sub-vocalized my daydreams (I actually move my mouth without letting sound come out, non-vocalized…

Okay, I'm actually freaking out. So there's this guy on youtube that I and many others have been arguing with. And he made multiple fake accounts to make it seem like there were a lot of people on his side. And then I commented saying "I guess Multiple personalities wasn't as rare as I thought."   He commented back saying "

"How about sex addiction and MD disorder? How rare are they?

I'll tell you.

Only the truly degenerate or those who have been traumatically…