I'm on my nearing the end of my 4th year of treatment for depression, and I think I've come to a conclusion. My depression is highly likely to have an internal cause. Which is why a change in environment, whatever it may be, doesn't have a significant influence on my mood.

Which is why my MDD, as a coping mechanism, doesn't ever leave. 

I changed my university course, went with my heart instead of my head. I tried to keep myself busy, but it didn't last long. I caught a viral…

   Hi there. I'm new here, but from the posts I've seen, we've all traveled the same path. I think I've had MDD since my early adulthood. But I wonder if anyone else has dealt with multiple personas, as in being more than one character, all interacting with each other. Sometimes more than ten characters, all dealing with each other, and elaborate situations, being able to be different people; but I don't think it's multiple personalities.

   Has anyone else experienced this? I'm very…

Hello. I'm Rachel, seventeen years old. I know I met many of you in the past several months on here, and lately timezones haven't quite been in my favor so it's been hard for me to keep in contact with some of the people I met here in the summer. Many of you who I've met know that my daydreams have been gone for about three-ish years now. They came when I was eleven, very suddenly, and left very gradually when I was fourteen-ish years old. At first, I was very sad when they left, because I…

            Hi maladaptive-daydreamers this is my first time writing a post with out thinking about doing it for weeks so am just gonna pour my heart out , this past few month's have been an emotional roller coaster for me i had my ups and downs and i can simply say i'm proud of my self :) i finally came to peace with having this condition and took a leap of faith and told someone in my real life about MD . 



          I always blamed my self for anything that was wrong in my life md…

Growing up, my favorite comic series was Calvin and Hobbes; simply because I felt that Calvin was just like me. He daydreamed, I daydreamed. Did any of you guys read Calvin and Hobbes, and did you ever feel like you were a kid like Calvin?

I've been trying not to daydream on my week off, but now that's resulting in all sorts of anxiety crowding in, angry thoughts, weird ideas, etc. I got a few things done. But most of the day feels wasted. I could hardly sit down and concentrate on a book. I literally have no concept of how to relax in real life. :(

Has anybody else read this book? I found it by accident in a box of books by the side of the road. Synopsis (I didn't write this):

I Never Promised You a Rose Garden is the story of a sixteen-year-old who retreats from reality into the bondage of a lushly imagined but threatening kingdom, and her slow and painful journey back to sanity.



Chronicles the three-year battle of a mentally ill, but perceptive, teenage girl against a world of her own creation,…

Does anyone have any thoughts on MD's effects on an individual's spiritual/religious beliefs? I've been pondering on the question lately and I wanted to know if anyone had any ideas.

It's funny to read my old posts about my therapist- I don't recall him ever "encouraging" me to daydream, or ever saying it was healthy, though early on he was more concerned about WHAT I was daydreaming about, and why. I've spent a lot of time discussing with him since then the many things that made me use daydreaming as a coping mechanism.

I really like my therapist. I'm not romantically attracted to him or anything, but he and I ended up having a surprising number of things in…

So I've converted the old MD/Dissociation thread into a more wider scope - a place to discuss old and new studies and research that effect the MD community as a whole. :)

We have the research papers on the "links" page and it seems we're still waiting for the results of Dr Somer's latest study? If anyone has found this let me know please - it was suppose to have been released by now.

I always had a feeling I was 'abnormal' and 'different' but everyone thinks they are, right? So I thought nothing of my daydreaming, until I and a close friend were talking and I told her about my daydreaming for hours on end. She then told me how it wasn't something normal and should see what it was. However she didn't treat me any different. So I did some research and the results were, "Maladaptive daydreaming" I then tried to explain what it felt like to someone whom I wholeheartedly…

So we've all heard the origin stories of growing up with MD, but what about the stories of dealing with MD as an adult? Anyone want to share?

Do we daydream because we feel that we get more meaningful interaction from the characters in our own minds than people in real life? Do we really desire relationships that can touch us to the core? What are your guys' thoughts on this?

So I was in class today listening to music and I entered a "MD-trip" when this song came on and it really upset me that I had to stop myself from "moving" to it. Do you guys have experiences like this?

So there's was this online community I've been a part of for like 23 years (it was the community for a comic I'm way to into and it is tied to my MD). It was a generally good place. We pissed each other off, but everyone got along and were good people.

We had a saint keeping everyone together. And I'm not kidding, one of the nicest people you'd ever meet. I don't think she ever said a unkind word to anyone in her life. She kept everyone together and was kinda our heart (and I know…

Since I left for college, my day dreaming has been confined to one single moleskine notebook. In it, almost exclusively stories and pictures of the Western Union. If you could divide my day dreams up into neat sections, the Western Union is the most recent. Here are some of the pictures for you. Above is the the Steward of Centralia, General Caesar North. The Western Union…