Multiple personas

[Athena]

   Hi there. I'm new here, but from the posts I've seen, we've all traveled the same path. I think I've had MDD since my early adulthood. But I wonder if anyone else has dealt with multiple personas, as in being more than one character, all interacting with each other. Sometimes more than ten characters, all dealing with each other, and elaborate situations, being able to be different people; but I don't think it's multiple personalities.

   Has anyone else experienced this? I'm very curious to know. Thank you.

[Fallen Messenger]

Well,  I have four ultra ego, more like three because I'm not attached with one of them, but having multiple characters in your daydreams is normal. I have created a infaverse in mine! lol the infaverse is the seven multiverses. lol I have too much free time.. okay. If you mean by main characters in your daydreams... I have over 100. Each with their own unique personalities that I love. They all interact with each other. I used to think I had multiple personalities disorder until I did research to find out its MDD! haha! It sucks.... but your 'personas' are totally normal.

[Athena]

Thanks again for the comments; I love a sense of humor. It's a must-have, especially these days. I look forward to reading other blogs, and maybe understanding MDD a little more, if that's possible. I don't feel as much of a misfit as I use to.

[Roel]

Hey Athera!

I stopped being a part of my own daydreams years ago. Now also have the spectator/narrator role, like Bee.

However some time ago I played persona's in my daydreams. I would jump into stories with many creatures/people/machines/whatevers and roleplay as one of them. If I died or something, it was game over and I had to pick another character and rebegin/continue the 'game' ;) Like an imaginary rpg :D

It's pretty normal. You could switch from protagonist to antagonist or suddenly become spectator or narrator or any other drastic changes in perspective could happen. It's all normal. You're just dreaming, using your imagination. And the perspective you use is just part of your imagination too. You dream of how you want to experience it the best, and if that involves switching persona's than you just do that. Personally I've had perspective changes from looking at an action fight between two people in a room, to suddenly focus on a battle between ants and spiders on the ceiling of that room. Changing scale, view and focus (and seriousness) completely.

And also, change is just fun. It's fun to experience being every character at least once ;)

Craziest changes can happen. I was a character, than I was that characters pet, than I was the alien robotic being that the pet dug up in the garden, then I was a soldier who was fighting these aliens in space aaaand woooooooooooo! I spiral away into my own dreams!

Many people seem to believe MDD always functions as, or originates from a coping mechanism. I don't believe that at all. MDD can have multiple causes. Sometimes it's simply a personality trait that got out of hand. For me it's simple: Dreaming is fun. Even if reality was an utopia I would still do it ;)

MDD just get's encouraged by bad things in life. Just like someone would play more videogames, eat more unhealthy things, drink more alchohol, etc. whene times are rough. It's a distraction from life and whene life is not pleasant anyone will seek a distraction from all the noise. Doesn't realy matter what distraction. MDD is just the closest and easliest option for us. However this does not mean that bad events in life caused this disorder to exist.

But I'll be honest: We have almost zero research or info about this disorder. It could just as well be caused by being bitten by a radioactive bunny rabbit as a kid ;)µ

Take care and welcome tp this community! :D

[Athena]

Thanks for the feedback. To Padraic: The thing about my MDD is that it's not a coping mechanism. Sometimes I wake up as a character, other times I'm me. It's just become something that I can do anytime, even when I'm out in public, although I try not to talk with the other characters. I can have a bunch of characters that I act out, and they all interact with each other. They even have heated discussions! Sometimes I don't know who they are, they just happen along. I hope I'm not crazy.

For Bee: I'm rarely a spectator. My other self has evolved over the years, but the bad parts of me, or the parts that I don't want other people to see, aren't revealed in my DD. That would kinda spoil the whole DD thing, wouldn't it? I don't want to be me in my DD if I'm already me. Does that make sense?

So nice to be able to share this side of me, a side that I've NEVER been able to tell anyone else about. Again, thanks for the comments and support.  : )

[Bee]

Hey, welcome! Always glad to see a new face. :D

As for different personalties as you're discribing it, I'd say it totally isn't multiple personalties disorder (or DPD). Sounds pretty normal DDing to me.

My DDs are like films playing out before my eyes - I personally have no persona within that world, rather I'm every 'character' all at the same time. I'm a mere spectator. So that might kinda be the same - I know other posters here DD in the same way.

If you are referring to multiple 'versions' the inserted 'dreamer' specifically? I never thought of that - makes sense though - each version is a different piece of themselves that the dreamer wants to explore. Fasinating. :)