Where wild minds come to rest
People don't know how many lies I've old to cover up that I have mdd( especially with my parents) I have been daydreaming ever since I could remember, my first maladaptive daydreams were of mermaids, then of angles and super heroes. I have created a complex family tree that I have been dwelling upon for about 4 years now, moving from character to character. I tried a media fast, but that only made things worse, it gave me more free time to imagine Cancri E, the plant Amity is from,and Amity Amoura. Amity ( my ultra ego) is a princess knight who has powers and protects the multiverse. I am attached to her, but she just finished her big trial, and I am being forced to move into her daughter... I have an imaginary boyfriend too... I don't know what to do... I am telling my doctor... But I am still scared! I find that a coping method for daydreaming is poetry, but my daydreams inspire my poetry, so it is an endless pit of misery... I am still a minor ho has no life, I am depressed and find my only hope is through the Lord( or so I've been told) and I am just sad, frustrated... and I don't know!!!! I wish I could be normal and only wander off for like 3 minutes a day, not 10 hours! I get like 2 hours of sleep at night, and go to be at 6 pm! Honestly, wish I could be normal... But like Amity, I must stay strong, she or know what to do! She has found out her destiny! I have a friend who sufferers from MDD too, I asked him what his daydreams were about, and they were conversations with his crush, whom has a crush back on him, and he has no plot line, he just repeats the same conversations in his head over and over again. He makes not the best grades since he can't focus in class, I've been observing him for data and have found that the repetitive motions you do are linked to your realistic dreams (jobs and such) I hope that everyone has liked my first blog! And that everyone has enjoyed my findings, I will still do research!!!!