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People don't know how many lies I've old to cover up that I have mdd( especially with my parents) I have been daydreaming ever since I could remember, my first maladaptive daydreams were of mermaids, then of angles and super heroes. I have created a complex family tree that I have been dwelling upon for about 4 years now, moving from character to character. I tried a media fast, but that only made things worse, it gave me more free time to imagine Cancri E, the plant Amity is from,and Amity Amoura. Amity ( my ultra ego) is a princess knight who has powers and protects the multiverse. I am attached to her, but she just finished her big trial, and I am being forced to move into her daughter... I have an imaginary boyfriend too... I don't know what to do... I am telling my doctor... But I am still scared! I find that a coping method for daydreaming is poetry, but my daydreams inspire my poetry, so it is an endless pit of misery... I am still a minor ho has no life, I am depressed and find my only hope is through the Lord( or so I've been told) and I am just sad, frustrated... and I don't know!!!! I wish I could be normal and only wander off for like 3 minutes a day, not 10 hours! I get like 2 hours of sleep at night, and go to be at 6 pm! Honestly, wish I could be normal... But like Amity, I must stay strong, she or know what to do! She has found out her destiny! I have a friend who sufferers from MDD too, I asked him what his daydreams were about, and they were conversations with his crush, whom has a crush back on him, and he has no plot line, he just repeats the same conversations in his head over and over again. He makes not the best grades since he can't focus in class, I've been observing him for data and have found that the repetitive motions you do are linked to your realistic dreams (jobs and such) I hope that everyone has liked my first blog! And that everyone has enjoyed my findings, I will still do research!!!!

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Comment by Fallen Messenger on January 4, 2016 at 5:35am
Walking in circles may not have a job meaning, but a phycological meaning, hmmm... It could mean either you are doing the same thing over and over in your daydreams, you think your daydreams will never end, or you think something about your job in the two ways I shared about the daydreams... I don't really know you -at all- but those are just some guesses.
Comment by Fallen Messenger on January 4, 2016 at 5:27am
Not small, strong
Comment by Fallen Messenger on January 4, 2016 at 5:26am
One my other theories of why one could have MDD, is simply the cause of most other mental disorders, a chemical imbalance in the brain. Or like insomnia, but the opposite, where the sleep system is just a little too small.
Comment by Roel on January 4, 2016 at 5:17am

I relate a lot to you :) Though I've not been doing it for a specific period of time. I've just always done it. And I've never had the chance to meet anyone irl who did the same. That seems very interesting to me.

I walk in circles while dreaming. And I dream of robots fighting 4333 years from now, diseases getting born and reïncarnated as living humans with superpowers, monsters who live on a burning planet and live lifes like wariors there and spacetravel. So I don't think the repetitive motions have a link with the content of dreams. I always thought it depended on how intense the daydreams were. These are just my thoughts though.

I'm reading this a bit late (sorry for that). And I wondered; Is 10 hours a day realy so intense? Does it have to be caused by abuse or something else bad?

Amity I.D. says she can think of causes. that is clear.

But I'm asking because there are days I daydream that much too. And if I don't I think it's not much less than 10 hours because I daydream throughout the entire day while working etc. Just with a lot of interuptions. But I've never been a victim of anything and I've never been treated bad by anyone in a way that hurted me. Like I never had to deal with any serious or painful events.

Just asking for opinions and thoughts; do you guys think it's possible to daydream this much without an external cause?

Comment by Fallen Messenger on January 1, 2016 at 5:56pm
Yeah, but if I skip a few years of school( which I can do) it would be sooner
Comment by Camoran on January 1, 2016 at 2:01pm
There you have it. I suspect you can't detach yourself from these things physically, so you do it mentally, with daydreams. I think the only way to get rid of MDD is to get rid of its cause, though I doubt you can just jump out of the house and go live your life.
Comment by Fallen Messenger on January 1, 2016 at 9:58am
Well, abuse... Wait that was my whole life... My sister became popular and a bully to me... Ummm...I also was set as an outcast and uh... Went emo....
Comment by Camoran on January 1, 2016 at 7:30am
I don't think a book can cause maladaptive daydreams. Did anything happen 4 years ago that you have a hard time dealing with?
Comment by Fallen Messenger on January 1, 2016 at 7:25am

thank you, I know my first daydreams that were really maladaptive were the ones that started four years ago, because of a book. What do I do now, with the information? Do I buy a copy and burn the book as symbolism?

Comment by Camoran on January 1, 2016 at 5:30am

You should dig into your MDD and claw your way back to the reason it started. If it's so intense, something's probably gone wrong at some point.

On a personal note, don't listen to those who tell you the 'Lord' is your hope/strength/salvation/whatever; your own strength is what you need to fix yourself up. And that strength depends on how much you know about your MDD and how much you want to be rid of it.

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