I am 20 now and I used to be utterly immersed in daydreaming since as young as I can remember. My dreamworld was constantly growing increasingly complex. This continued until I turned 18 and moved out. At the time, I had a lot of trauma in relation to my family, but as soon as I moved out, the daydreams just… faded away. No compulsions. It’s almost like I grew out of it. It’s odd, it’s been two years and I still haven’t had a compulsion. It’s incredibly freeing, but I miss it. Anyways I’m not… Continue

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There's a conversation in her eyes,

Continents and oceans,

Stars and moons,…

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I feel like I've been talking a lot lately and that's something I don't usually do, but I found something out today.

A few months ago my sister (17 years old) mentioned that she thinks she might have Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) and I kind of dismissed it. Earlier today I brought it up again because she had one of her mood swings. I researched the disorder a bit and found out that she needs counseling right away or else her chances of a full recovery will drop from…

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This isn't much of a blog post in my opinion, but I just want to vent.

I do extemporaneous public speaking competitions for FFA at my school. That kinf of public speaking is where you have a few minutes to prepare a speech out of a little but of info. The reason I  put myself, a complete introvert, into this position, was because my idealized self is a public speaker. And a very famous public speak at that. Because in my head I am able to perfect those speeches, it causes me…

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CURSE OF THE IMAGINATION

WRITTEN ON  7/5/17 AT 4:12 PM

I was on the verge of greatness,

but then the greatest catastrophe,

even the consequence of entropy.

My passion became a cold fire,

my resolve…

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I believe that in my case, the only upside to maladaptive daydreaming is the heightened creativity. I use this creativity to write poetry. I spend the last few days working on a particular poem about maladaptive daydreaming. I figure that it does no good rotting away in my drawer so I might as well share it with all of you.

DAYDREAMERS

(completed 6/27/17 at 1:25 PM)

I am near,

But I am far,

I am lost,

I am broken,

I am…

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I was surfing online and I found this awesome website about MD. It has some interesting perspectives. I recommend you check it out here! Anyways, dream on my friends!

I'm almost finished writing a poetry book and I felt like I should share just a few poems that relate to MD.

Reality

10/14/16 2:29 pm

 

I'm slowly drifting to the end of the earth.

I'm slowing become someone else.

Losing hope,

Losing my mind.

 

Lost…

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     I have been a maladaptive daydreamer my whole life...or ever since I could remember. But honestly, I don't remember much. I have close to zero recollection of my childhood. I don't remember last week hardly at all. I have wonderful short term memory, kinda. I remember important things like eating, sleeping, and going to school. But I don't have any memory of little things. I will set my phone down and walk away, I come back in a frantic search to find my phone because I don't remember…

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---WARNING! LONG POST AHEAD!---

Lately, on this website I've noticed less and less posts about "curing" MD or just finding hope through and for MD. This post I feel is my own personal thoughts and a response to the post my maro called "Why we are proud of daydreaming?..." I agree with maro on many points, but I feel he is getting the wrong idea. We…

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Hey I've been on this website for like six months now, but I'm so happy to see all of the posts from new people and to see the awareness in MD growing! I recently did a report and slideshow in my computer class in MD for awes mess, one of my pointed says Figured out in the process, but I wouldn't take it back for the world! I love having MD!

So it is obvious that there is little research on MD, we need to step up, it will be decades before we are seen in a light of someone who suffers with something severe. We all need to step up! We cannot just rely on researchers like Eli Somer we must do our own research. I know many of us already are, I don't mean that we need to put on a lab coat, I mean to use our logic and common sense to figure out different aspects of our mental disorder, we can do this! We are smart! We can receive… Continue

I am going to warn you, this WILL be a lengthy post! I am going to share with you about my current daydreams!

It all started about four years ago. I decided to read a book that my friends have been pressuring me to read, the book is the Maximum Ride series, great books! But That isn't all... after reading all eight books in 2-3 months, my mind wanted more, a better ending... my mind wanted me in the book. I started my daydreaming when I…

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People don't know how many lies I've old to cover up that I have mdd( especially with my parents) I have been daydreaming ever since I could remember, my first maladaptive daydreams were of mermaids, then of angles and super heroes. I have created a complex family tree that I have been dwelling upon for about 4 years now, moving from character to character. I tried a media fast, but that only made things worse, it gave me more free time to imagine Cancri E, the plant Amity is from,and Amity…

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