Oh well..



i just find this site in a journal in the library just 5 minutes ago (time to walk to home! hehe)

i hope to find a lot of (possibly strange:) people with which to compare.



What about me?

I always spent a lot of time daydreaming.

Since I was young,at school, people consider me funny and extravagant.…

HEllo and thank you Cordellia for tmaking ths webste. It is very helpful and it lets me know that I am not alone.

SOO . I just spent the past hour typing away and my computer froze... dont feel like retyping it but it was about : how  I found this site, why I dont know why i have MDD (because my childhood was pretty good, besides a fussy mom) and how  think it takes over/ruins my life and keeps me from being the best me!

Now I see some people dont mind there…

At least I think so... I was feeling a little better yesterday and even better today.  Talking to people has helped.  Both the Prosecuting Attorney and a lady from the Resource Center told me that I can still file a report with the police, if anyone else reports that she sexually abused them my report could help their case.  Of course its highly possible nothing could come of it.  But at least I did something.  And the Resource Center is going to have an advocate help me file the report,…

But at least I tried... or so it goes.  Why do pedophiles get away with it?  Its way past the criminal statute for her to face charges.  And because she has purposely kept herself unemployed and has no assets, I can't even file a civil claim against her because it would waste my time and money.  She gets to live life free and without consequences for her actions.

Meanwhile on the news in a city south of where I live,…

I swear, I haven't been day-dreaming for almost 2 months. Some little dreams here and there, this is normal, but definitely I'm no longer having drop outs for hours or days. The achiever: I said it, I did it. But I'm still here, writing my blogs, getting rid from demons from the past, definitely attributed to my day-dreaming. Well, I don't know, maybe, if I said it publicly, it will go. Like Roger Water became a happier person after writing very personal The Wall. Maybe. So, up close and…

Over the last couple of days I switched back to one of my other daydream worlds after concentrating on another for quite a few months.  The one I've switched back to, I have lots of people around who love me.  Family and friends, I'm married and have kids.  I have a brother who's married to my best friend.  I'm talented and so is everyone around me, all in different ways.  Mine and my brother's childhood is tragic, (in some ways mirroring my real life) but we pulled through and are stronger…

I have been daydreaming a lot in the past few days- my old, usual daydreams based on fictional characters and fictional situations.  I haven't focused much on these daydreams in the past few months because I have been preoccupied with other things, but some old triggers came up recently, bringing these to the forefront of my mind.  

In some ways, it is nice to get back into the good old simple daydreams, where the events and characters have little connection to the things that happen…

Sorry this is formatted so poorly...

Yesterday I decided to just see if there was any info out there on excessive/obsessive daydreaming. I honestly have no idea about what prompted that, curiosity I guess. I have been doing this since I was about 11 years old. In the back of my mind I've always thought it was a bit strange, but I am a creative person (always useed to write, and still do occasionally) and have a very active imagination obviously.



I have done a lot of…

Just ask yourself, would you really be any happier, if your day-dreams came true? Wouldn't you be surprised, lost, embarrased? Wouldn't you ask yourself: what made me so special that I achieved all this without effort? Wouldn't you feel guilty that all the success / eternal love / super adventures / super powers came at once? Wouldn't you feel pressure? How would you handle this? And do you really deserve this? What makes you a better candidate than the others, working in the…

Taking a break from house cleaning to do a blog update.  Its been a while so its due.  Been too busy at work and not on the computer at home much lately... Here goes.

Dr. C has upped my antidepressant and one of my migraine preventatives.  Seems to be helping so far.  We'll have to see what happens in the long term.  I've noticed that with the antidepressant (Zoloft) that I've not been daydream binging.  My daydreaming is a more tolerable amount, that middle balance that I've…

Decided to make a blog post for the hell of it :3

First off, I tend to sometimes take names from real tv shows because I can't think up anything myself. The daydream takes place in the fictional town of Torchwood, Arizona where I work for a large technology company that develops quite mysterious technologies. Also on the outskirts of the town is an Air Force base that (like Area 51 I guess) collects alien technology and tries to use them to develop new weapons. The entire…

There's a nice little job lined up for me at my Dad's company.

It's by no means dead-end. I could end up physically crafting the hulls of space ships

The attractive-sounding secretary (Hiring person... HR girl, whatever) sent another email.

"You haven't sent us your application yet. If you don't want the Job be sure to tell me now"…

I've had MD since I can remember and never saw it as a torment, just something that made me different. Of course for many of those years I believed I had ADHD. . . I only started seeing (and accepting) the negative effects MD has in my life after seeing forums and learning what MD was (and that I had it).

It always came to be as a sort of  'blessing' to have the capability to imagine such vivid things. It's so much fun! I'm never bored and - wow - I can see so much! I love to…

To leave the legacy... What will remain, when we're gone? Some "chosen" ones, like Jim Morrisson or Kurt Cobain still continue to influence the lives of others, but what would happen, if they decided not to try but to kept their music to themselves? And what about me? If I'm not so talented, is this the excuse?

Five years ago I learnt to make pivot tables. I came to the guys, who are preparing reports on daily basis and asked to show me, how to make it. The guy, who showed…

  Sleep used to come natural to me, as natural as breathing came. Something to let my mind rest. But now it seems everything but normal. I'm not sure anymore if maladaptive daydreaming is a good thing or bad anymore, since it keeping me from sleeping, and from really waking up?  

     I mean the first thing i think of when i wake up, isn't what i'm doing today, or what i have planned or my…

http://soundcloud.com/deloreanjones/youonlyliveonce

my ego ebbs and flows,

leaps and rebounds

crashes and resurfaces.

It's really fun to forget about how you (I) can't do it as well as others and just sing for the joy of it. I really really like this song, and in singing it you'll get close to it in a way you can't by just listening. You steal more of it into your soul, I…

been on 40mgs of fluoxetine for a while now and i can honestly say it definitely helps me to control my md.

 I still do it dont get me wrong but its much much less now than before.

 i guess this is because the fluoxetine ie prozac stops you from being able to concentrate for too long and it peps you up so you dont need as much daydream-time.

citalopram on the other hand was pure evil stuff and it got me lost in my…