Do we create what we really need?

[Angel]

Over the last couple of days I switched back to one of my other daydream worlds after concentrating on another for quite a few months.  The one I've switched back to, I have lots of people around who love me.  Family and friends, I'm married and have kids.  I have a brother who's married to my best friend.  I'm talented and so is everyone around me, all in different ways.  Mine and my brother's childhood is tragic, (in some ways mirroring my real life) but we pulled through and are stronger for it.

 

I don't want to go into too much detail...  Some of the supporting characters and the entire world itself are from a book series.  Some stuff that takes place is really crazy and outlandish or too soap-opera-ish.  And the feelings and details around the "me" and "brother" characters' backgrounds with their family growing up... I just realize that I had created something just as dysfunctional and in some ways similar to my own.  Wow.

 

So all the people who love and support me in this daydream world, they make me feel better.  They take care of that damaged little girl in my story and the one in my real life.  I wish they could make my real life brother feel better too.

[Delorean Jones]

: O well you could always practice lucid dream control for the latter. And settling for a world class sculpter wouldn't be so bad, would it?

I'm learning how to draw atm (never really went too far in school withit) and my daydreams got me convinced i'm gonna be so awesome :p despite about average talent.

 

You probably got loads of art build up!

[Angel]

Perhaps my artistic talents, I've let some of that go over the years.  I used to draw all the time in school and take every art class available.  What I'd like to explore is sculpting/ceramics or maybe try doing some stained glass.  Or even photography.  These are realistic talents that I could explore.  The talents in my fantasies are not so realistic, like magic, flying (have wings), etc.

[Delorean Jones]

What talent would you like to develop?

[Angel]

Its alright, I'm not the only one and it certainly wasn't the worst situation out there.  I'm alive and I still have my Mom and Brother!  The best we can do is pick ourselves up and try to live good lives.  Its becoming difficult for me emotionally lately because after all these years I am in the beginning stages of seeking justice against one of my abusers.

[Petunia]

So sorry you have had such  a hard life, but it is understandable for your daydreams to be related.