Disclaimer: I typed these onto a word document due to my lack of internet access, almost compulsively in an extremely emotional state as I wanted to get it all out.It thus may not make complete sense-(correction) it makes  sense but is disjointed like a couple of topics have been coalesced(cut-copy-paste) to form an article.

When I am stressed, really panicking, I realize my real mind shuts down and I start going uncontrollably into my MD world where I am…

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No two snowflakes are alike. No two people that engage in MD are alike. There are people that can drink in moderation and lead happy, healthy lives. I can't. There are people that can take ecstasy or do coke every now and then that can know their limit, can easily abstain when necessary and lead full lives. I can't. I am genuinely happy for the people that MD and are able to lead fulfilling lives. Don't think I can.

I am slipping into an eating binge. I have abstained from all of my… Continue

What it would be like to try to make a survey to see how we all pan out since similarities exist -- you know, comparing any diagnoses we have had, our living situations past and present and how we all look at our futures. You know?  I really want to look into creating one, however time consuming and thinking of all the content may take some time. 



Anyway, I was wondering (to whoever reads) which things (realistic!) you have 'experienced' in your DD compared to things you have not…

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I've been unemployed for 4 1/2 years due to bipolar disorder and severe anxiety. I live with my parents and spend the majority of my day MDD. I rarely leave my room, I rarely leave the house. I'm trapped by it. Addicted to it. I MDD so much that I have no social life whatsoever, no hobbies. I watch T.V. sometimes but only to give my mind a rest because let me tell you I have been daydreaming so much my mind is getting really flustered. I'm also starting to get frustrated because since I…

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If not, is there a retreat for treating people with similar illnesses like OCD?

Listening to music, not listening to music, driving, watching movies... Right then, I trailed off into a scenario of me replaying an evening at the bar with a couple of friends.. I can't get through a sentence. I don't know what to do (btw, I am relatively happy during the day. I do daydream some but I'm usually so busy at work I can't. It's nighttime when I fall into my holes of sadness and dreaming of who I wish was around or me living some awesome existence instead of on this couch)

I posted this in the forum under a thread about current daydreams, but I felt it was necessary to post here because I find it so interesting.

My current daydreaming scenario is a little unconventional, but it intrigued me enough to explore it in real life. Pole dancing! For fitness, not for a living. ;) My main character is actually a male, and though in some ways he represents characteristics I wish I had, I don't consider him an idealized version of me (though my boyfriend tells me…

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Hi Everyone

Just wanted to share, I've been playing a free online game called "Superbetter". It was invented by game designers under the guidance of health specialists to help people improve personal resilience (i.e build up optimism and motivation).

They consist of quick and simple exercises that help increase emotional well-being. It has different "packages" for depression, anxiety, addiction etc. I've been playing it under the depression package, its easy to…

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When does internal dialogue become daydreaming and when does daydreaming become maladaptive daydreaming?

I have been there before. Where I'm in a perpetual state of fantasy only to guard me from reality. Most of you are there. Trapped in your minds, living out your daydreams, but feeling isolated and discontent with real life. Others of you are happy you don't have to live in the real world; after all, you created a fantasy world so that you could escape the harsh, cruel world.

I've felt all those things. I still do. I'm not the most introverted person in the world, but I'm definitely no…

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Hello all. I'm Sandra. I'm 28, single, and I have a young daughter. Over my life I have battled different addictions, when I think I have pinpointed my problem, out seems like it is just an overlying issue of something else. I keep peeling back layers. I recently deserted seeing a counselor for depression/ sex addiction. I don't lose my virginity until I was 21, I made up for a lot of lost time the first couple of years but 'normal people' duo way more than I did. The biggest part of my sex… Continue

I have been daydreaming for as long as i can remember. It started when I was young around the age of 6 and I used to play with dolls and things and watched tv. Later I would act out scenes with my dolls and turned it into my own little drama show.  Later about a few years later I began to imagine I was one of the characters and imagined it in my head. Everything was perfect, any and everything you could ever imagine happened. It felt great! Until I realized I was talking to myself out loud…

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Hi everyone, I been floating around this site since I signed up a few days ago and it's fascinating to find so many heavy day dreamers like myself. I have seen this site before but only now I decided to engage myself to share. Got to say I enjoy reading your stories and understand all the Maladapative Daydreaming issues completely. Totally on board with you. 

But I noticed that most (not all) the of content posted by members on the site are kind of on the negative spectrum of MD.…

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as far as i can remember iv always been a shy kid,didnt have many friends..teachers always used to tell my mom at a pta meeting "that your child is really quiet and dont have any friends".i grew up being very quiet.i tried to talk to ppl and make friends but its really difficult for me. i used to feel jealous of all the other kids hanging out in groups and laughing and having fun.whereas i just sit in a corner staring into empty space.

my dad has never been there for me and its my mom…

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On Dec. 10th, it was exactly 365 days from when i was told about MDD, and discovered this community and web site. Ever since my own experience with MDD took a turn for the worse, time has always scared me. At the age of 11, i realized just how fast time goes by, and that theres no stopping it. And as a person gets older, it goes even faster. It was incredibly overwelming knowing this at such a young age. An age when a child is suppose to be having fun, and being carefree.

2013…

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I haven't posted anything on this site for over a year but do still visit regularly. I have good days and bad days but am today is definitely a bad day. I cannot stop thinking about this condition that I have and how much it has hindered most aspects of my life. I feel like I'm losing my grip on reality and have no one to talk to. I have a 3 year old daughter and often think she would be better off living with her father as I'm constantly stuck in my daydream world and don't think I'm being the… Continue