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Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest

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No two snowflakes are alike. No two people that engage in MD are alike. There are people that can drink in moderation and lead happy, healthy lives. I can't. There are people that can take ecstasy or do coke every now and then that can know their limit, can easily abstain when necessary and lead full lives. I can't. I am genuinely happy for the people that MD and are able to lead fulfilling lives. Don't think I can.
I am slipping into an eating binge. I have abstained from all of my outlets except for MD and food, so the less I do other things, the more I do those. You cannot stop thinking and you cannot stop eating. I am a vegetarian most of the time, I had fajitas, steak, beans full of different types of pig, and a bunch of other stuff today. I don't know if my off switch is broken or something gets switched on in my brain.
Just being introspective. In a way, I feel like I did when I was sad as a kid. All I had for comfort was food and MD. Last time I abstained from MD, I got so nauseous, I had to pull over and vomit several times. I was getting sick at work. I'm afraid of my mind.

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Comment by Sandra on January 13, 2014 at 4:14pm: Today, I started a cleanse. I am prepared to regain control of my emotions. I don't know what affect this will have on the MD, but I'm not going back to where I was body-wise. I know cold turkey isn't good for you so it'll be gradual. I spotted eating meat again today. That part is easy for me. But sugar is one of my, best friends.

Comment by Queen Dopamine on January 13, 2014 at 9:33am: This makes me very sad for you... While I feel addicted to my MD and get anxious or depressed if I can't or stop doing it, I don't think it damages my life the way it does other people. And when you struggle with binge eating on top of that...I've been there as well. It makes you feel like crap about yourself. They can put you in rehab for drugs; they can put you on a nutritional plan to help you with eating; but there's no place they can put you to get you away from your mind.

Comment by S K on January 12, 2014 at 8:54am: I agree with you, about the the inability to break away. I don't smoke or do drugs because i am afraid that if I do I won't be able to get off them. I sometimes regret not doing them, I think those activities tend to help people bond, especially in college. I think I overdose on Mding or food to cope. Last night I was up all night, perpetually hungry- a psychological hunger.Its different from the hunger I feel when I'm not distraught or depressed or panicking. I too am a vegetarian, more by habit than choice. Binge eating is something I used to do in my late teens to punish myself.Food and daydreams were my survival outlets too. I think they(the dreams) are as essential as food and water. They give a purpose of sorts too our lives. Something to look forward too.

I think we all are, at least on this site afraid of our minds and when they might take over or give up on us considering the dual reality we inhabit.I realize I haven't really offered any advice but I just wanted to tell you that there are people in the same boat as me.

Take care.