I haven't gotten much sleep lately. I took a four hour nap today, and now my dazed state is making me daydream more. At least, that's what I think. I am lying in the hospital room with my mother with limited battery (due to breaking my charger, oops), and this neglection to doing anything is making me daydream. I have been avoiding it by using videos and anime. Daydreaming takes up so much of my time, that I had to avoid it somehow.

Well, that's all I have for now.

I was surfing online and I found this awesome website about MD. It has some interesting perspectives. I recommend you check it out here! Anyways, dream on my friends!

I'm almost finished writing a poetry book and I felt like I should share just a few poems that relate to MD.

Reality

10/14/16 2:29 pm

I'm slowly drifting to the end of the earth.

I'm slowing become someone else.

Losing hope,

Losing my mind.

Lost…

     I have been a maladaptive daydreamer my whole life...or ever since I could remember. But honestly, I don't remember much. I have close to zero recollection of my childhood. I don't remember last week hardly at all. I have wonderful short term memory, kinda. I remember important things like eating, sleeping, and going to school. But I don't have any memory of little things. I will set my phone down and walk away, I come back in a frantic search to find my phone because I don't remember…

I signed up for this site a couple months ago and just noticed I finally got approved like a week ago.  So that's good. :)

So when I first read about maladaptive dreaming it really resonated with me.  A lot.  I couldn't believe that maybe there actually was a name for what was wrong with me.  I've been so isolated my entire life. 

It's kind of a relief.  I hope  to find the answers I've been looking for.

Hello :)

I am currently working on a photography/art project about Maladaptive Daydreaming.

I am quite a daydreamer myself, this is how I got interested in the topic. I want to find out as much as possible about your experience in order to reveal it to other people in a visual way and raise awareness to this condition and moreover explore human subconsciousness in general. If you could please fill out this…

---WARNING! LONG POST AHEAD!---

Lately, on this website I've noticed less and less posts about "curing" MD or just finding hope through and for MD. This post I feel is my own personal thoughts and a response to the post my maro called "Why we are proud of daydreaming?..." I agree with maro on many points, but I feel he is getting the wrong idea. We…

So, my family doesn't know about MDD or that I have it. As far as they know I am their angel child with perfect grades, good friends, and active in the school community. 

Lately, I have started to watch and enjoy anime. Which is super fun, a lot of my friends watch anime and I convinced NE to watch the one I love. But, then MDD kicked in.

In most fandoms, there is a plethora of fan made content. It usually consists of fanart and fanfiction.

Let me rant about fanfiction…

This is a long post, but here it goes...

Dd’ing is something i’ve done all my life. I started when i was 4 or 5 and just kept doing it. It’s fine for a child but problematic for an adult.

This is not to say that daydreaming is bad, but that dd’ing excessively serves a purpose that is unhealthy for me. Daydreaming is a way to get what i want without trying, to have great moments in my imagination without risking rejection, and to feel powerful without any…

This is just something from observation, but i get the impression that there are 3 kinds of people on this site:

1. Neurotic Daydreamers - these are the dd’ers who are closest to the “maladaptive” definition. They use daydreams to sustain an idealized sense of self that compensates for low self-esteem, essentially “growing on the useless side of life” because these daydreams don’t improve our situation; they unconsciously serve to spare us the pain of real emotion and the…

I really need somebody to talk to. I've never felt this depressed and heavy-hearted before, and I'm very worried it's going to last a long time and get worse. As if, this is it: my MD has stopped being a coping mechanism, and it's now working against me. A melanchic reminder. Does anyone else go through this? Used to be my MDs make me happy, but now... How about you? Does it alternate for you guys?

Also, another question: What effect do you think caffeine has on your…

Repeating the scenario in endless loop with slightly different variations is my main problem if not the problem.

For the St.Patrick's day I went to watch the parade and on the way back I met an important political figure. I discussed with him one of the issues I am passionate about. During this dialogue I made a blunder. Since this even happened I repeat this scenario with slight modifications endlessly imagining that I said a few different things and made a joke or…

I intend to update this post many times to capture all the symptoms. So typical of my condition...repetition to get it right! :)

I am not your typical MDDer but I ruminate a lot. I even observed this condition in my father when I was a kid. As I grew older I see how my life is becoming similar to my father's. Life's big tasks are not attended and anything that is of big consequence gets postponed or delayed or not done at all because whenever I attempt to do such tasks I get lost in…

(Visual of me in my world as a General Edward Stratton, of the FSKDF)

That's it guys, I've done it. I have figured out how to properly channel my MD into something productive. I have created and am currently working on a magazine that is a conglomerate of my and other people's daydreams. Channeling my daydreams into something productive like this…