Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I truly thought I was the only one suffering from this . Heck I did not even know what it was till one day I looked up my symptoms and found MD. WOW that was me to the letter. I have always had a big imagination. I was the only girl in a family of boys. My Dad was abusive and I truly think that my MD was spawned by my childhood. I did it to escape the pain and loneliness. I would lock myself in my bedroom and not come out. I did not have the problem at school. Now as an adult. I am still alone and have no friends. Due to the abuse in the family I only associate with one brother. I have a job and do not do this at work. Well if I do I hide it pretty darn well. I do have issues with going to the grocery store or mall. I fear at those times my MD sneaks out with blank stares or grins. I really get concerned about that. I am not hearing voices, I know full well its just daydreaming or fantasying. I also know that it has given me comfort with my loneliness at times when I needed it. Maybe I am strange but I don't want to get rid of it I just want to learn how to better control it. I am so happy I found this place. Before I did I felt so alone with it.