I thought I was the only one

[Lisa Tomlin]

I truly thought I was the only one suffering from this . Heck I did not even know what it was till one day I looked up my symptoms and found MD.  WOW that was me to the letter. I have always had a big imagination. I was the only girl in a family of boys. My Dad was abusive and I truly think that my MD was spawned by my childhood. I did it to escape the pain and loneliness.  I would lock myself in my bedroom and not come out. I did not have the problem at school. Now as an adult. I am still alone and have no friends. Due to the abuse in the family I only associate with one brother. I have a job and do not do this at work. Well if I do I hide it  pretty darn well. I do have issues with going to the grocery store or mall. I fear at those times my MD sneaks out with blank stares or grins. I really get concerned about that. I am not  hearing voices, I know full well its just daydreaming  or fantasying.  I also know that it has given me comfort with my loneliness at times when I needed it. Maybe I am strange but I don't want to get rid of it I just want to learn how to better control it. I am so happy I found this place. Before I did I felt so alone with it.

[Lisa Tomlin]

JenBren. Yes It is comforting to know I am not alone. Like you I'd not give it up. It has served me. I actually feel sorry for people who don't have our imagination.  I am like, "that would be boring" LOL

[JenBren]

Your story sounds so much like mine...my father was mentally abusive and to avoid him, I spent hours alone in my bedroom daydreaming as you did to avoid the abuse and loneliness. My daydreaming goes back as far as I can remember (I'm now 48, married and have 2 children) and I wouldn't give it up for anything. 

I'm glad you found this group! It's comforting to know we are not alone and there are others out there that understand. 

[Allen Mokadem]

We have a lot in common. *-* those blank stares... Just like me ._.