Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I was at the local post office. I was mailing my rent and a letter to my pen pal. Well, it was going great but during the whole transaction I was having inner conversation on what to do afterwards. Doing this and that, "oh that's a great idea." Then it came to finish the transaction at the counter I meant to say, "have a good day." Instead I blurted out, "that's a great idea". oh NOOOOOOOO. Did I just let out an inner conversation?!!! OH CRAP. I was so embarrassed. The lady looked surprised and her boss even stopped what he was doing and looked up. CRAP, oh CRAP!! I attempted to play cool and laugh it off and say, "I'm tired, I need coffee or something, , I meant to say, have a good day." I said while laughing and walking out the door.
Now I feel like I cannot go back to that place but you know I will have to. It is after all the local post office. I hate being like this.
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Rose, Oh its a small town. I think you are right though they may not remember or think anything of it. My MDD can be done anywhere. and even if I am busy. Interesting how its different for others.
Everyone has internal dialogue just MDers have much more than others! My internal dialogue often comes out but it's mostly not DD related as I need to be quiet/relaxed to DD.
E.g., a few weeks ago I rode my really really old motorbike to a local market, then when I went to go home it would not start and there was petrol leaking out of one of the hoses (I am self-taught with mechanics so don't know real names for these things) and I said 'oh, shit, what's wrong with you now!' to my bike, and this man and his wife who were getting into their car glared at me like I was mad. Meh...I just think 'well, I'm never going to see you again,' and I fixed my bike and rode home.
Your post office...is it in a small town where you may see them again? I doubt they will remember you saying the wrong reply. If not then who cares, they may just think you have bad hearing?
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