Sadness

[Alexis S Silver]

Just found out my mom has cancer. Big shock. Don't feel like doing anything. If anything, I actually thought that I would die before my parents. I would actually prefer that.

I thought about my reaction from hearing the news. On the inside, I was feeling very torn. The only expression I could give out was a subtle frown. I was never really good at showing my emotions on my own. When I am daydreaming, I would go all out with it. I would speak out my daydreams, walk in circles, and show an array of emotions. When I am really deep in my daydream, I am just still as I usually am.

I wonder what this means.

But all I want to do is be by my mother's side, for I don't like physical contact. That's what I'll do for now.