Sometimes, I almost feel afraid that I don't really have Maladaptive Daydreaming. I mean, I know it's stupid worrying since it's OBVIOUS (to anyone who's seen me at the age of 7 - present and who knows about this disorder) that I have MD, but I feel worried that I don't have MD.

I know that it'll seem really weird, but if I think about discovering that I didn't have MD, I would actually feel sad. Rejected. Depressed even. I can just imagine, in a few years, when psychologists have…

      Somedays it makes me want to cry. To know once I stop day dreaming i'm back in the real world, im stuck with my real thoughts, real people real things. in a real world your no in control of. To know everything I just day dreamed of, the perfect everything would never come true.

    Everytime I feel like i've wasted a part of my…

So I have a week off work and my plan was to cut down on the MD'ing, get some housework done, clean the garage, solve the debt crisis, and at least have something to say when someone asks how my vacation was. Nopes. Not happening.

 When I was younger I imagined my daydreams were plans for the future, then I got older and decided that they were still ideas that I could put into action. Now I'm nearly 38 and well....they are just day dreams. The "me" in my day dreams is getting older…

Yesterday a member posted some pics that I found beyond shocking and offensive.  He posted a pic joking about rape, another joking about murder, and a photo of Osama Bin Laden.  I deleted them as soon as I saw them and emailed him angrily asking why he thought it was okay.  He sent me back a long email basically saying that it would be okay if he posted a pic of Bush and that it's basically the same thing.  It is NOT the same thing.  

When I mentioned this on facebook another member,…

I HATE MY mind. It goes from A to Z in the blink of an eye. Sometimes I feel like my body is just along for the insane ride that is my dreams. It's odd to me that some people tell me that they don't dream at all. I just sit in envious thought about how I wish I wasn't disturbed each night with dreams that leave me waking in the dark, screaming out or crying. I've given up trying to get control of my dreams. A counselor of mine told me that…

OK, today I had this brilliant oppourtunity to daydream. My Dad is the technician for a disco buissness, and he was doing a party for 8 year olds - I went with my parents to show the kids how to do some of the dances.

Anyway, we set the equipment up on a stage, but there were 2 curtains - one hiding the main stage area, then there was a black curtain about 21 feet behind it, and the distance between that and the wall was about 3 feet. That curtain stayed closed for the whole disco.…

Hi everyone!  Cynthia just emailed me and asked me to put the word out to the forums that her study has been closed for about a year.  Apparently she's still getting inundated with requests to join.  She's working on revisions for her publisher and hopes to get it published soon.  It's very exciting but also a very long process.  She's working very hard and is very dedicated to helping us.  I can't wait.  Message me if you have questions or need anything.

I unexpectedly came across this movie - and remembering how much I missed it - just wanted to share a piece of dialog inside a mutual hallucination. Somehow these thoughts about hallucinations reminds me of my daydreaming. What do you make of it?

- There must be a mistake here, I don't recognise you. Are you some sort of... imaginary friend?

- Noooo, aren't you too old to have imaginary friends?

- I have emotional problems and I took too many pills. Why are you…

Hi everyone,

Im a 32 year old mother, living with my 2.5 yr old son and my loving husband. I want to share my story with you all. First of all let me tell you, the fact that i'll be understood here is very reassuring.

I have been daydreaming since chidlhood. I have read that MD is usually a result of trauma. Well i can remember only one incidence that could have caused me such deep trauma. My mum had twins (me and my sis) when she was 21 and she couldn't manage being a…

I very seldom remember night dreams but I had one where someone forcable cut my hair with me screaming the whole time. The dream dictionary says haircuts mean you need a change in thinking. Well yea!!! but how?

I just found out about this condition by surfing the internet. I don't know if it is appropriate to claim i have it myself, but a lot of what I'm reading here is stuff i feel very close too. I always thought i was just a dreamer, and i do have a very strong dreaming nature, but despite the difficulties it always caused me, i thought it was a good thing to have, because at least i had the chance to "see" things from a very different perspective, and it made me feel better...

Recently,…

Hi All,

I was too anxious to find the root cause of my problem, was reading through all sorts of content psychology and Sigmund Freud... and I landed here. :) I am glad.

I am 28 year married, expecting a baby in few months.

I have been a day dreamer since I was a kid and i can remember (atleast since age 8).

I had a normal loving family - parents and a younger bro. My parents did well do get me a decent school education and good food. I do not…

Here is a back story about me. I have gained alot of insight reading about the other DD'ers here so maybe this will help someone too. I am nearly 38, female, divorced, no kids.

I am new to this site so I hope I'm posting properly. I am meaning for this to be a blog post to introduce myself to people who want to get to know me, I'm sorry if it goes out to everyone as a blanket post.

I have been daydreaming ever since I can remember a conscious thought. I was not abused as a…

This is just a little bit about me, besides probably having MDD, I have been diagnosed with schitzophrena, bipolar and mania. I have the problem of day dreaming all the time. I usually pace around, although I don't usually listen to music. I go on auto pilot all the time, when I'm driving or doing stuff I've done before and requires little to no thought. I usually snap out of my day dreams when I done with the task, or in the case of driving when I come to a point I need to stop, like red…

"I'm  so busy doing nothing, I've got nothing to show"

- Middle Class Rut - "New Low"

This site has hit the nail on the head for me. 

I always knew something wasn't right, 

but couldn't figure exactly what was wrong.

And now I understand why.

It gets to that point where I am so accustomed to these 'day dreams' 

that I'm hardly aware that they exist, they are what I've always

considered to be normal.

At…

Sort of a mini fantasy involving me being my own car mechanic/electrician or Miss Fix-It-All!  It kind of feels nice.

Here's reality:

So yesterday morning my car wouldn't start yet again.  It happened before, had it towed to a shop that had it towed to a dealer to enter a security code to reset the stupid security system that disabled the fuel pump.  Only dealers have this security code.  I'm not paying nearly $300 and going without my car for half a week again!  Not…