Not really sure anymore

[Ellie Hale]

      Somedays it makes me want to cry. To know once I stop day dreaming i'm back in the real world, im stuck with my real thoughts, real people real things. in a real world your no in control of. To know everything I just day dreamed of, the perfect everything would never come true.

    Everytime I feel like i've wasted a part of my life, I'll never get back. And that one day, I'm gonna wake up and realize I'm 82 years old and never did anything, never put my life to use, never tryed to live my dreams,because i thought it would be easier to conquer them  in my own head. And that scares me so badly at times.

     I everynight i promise myself, I try and stop tommrow only to be disapointed again. For me Maladaptive day dreaming is truely maladaptive. It just horrible to know the place you can't get out of....your fully incontrol of.

[Rezona]

I second Rebecca's comment 100%. Take heart, you're not alone. Everyone has some kind of fear of waking up and wondering where the heck their life went. Now that you're fully aware of how your MD is making you feel you can start taking steps to change. I personally enjoy my escape with MD but also realize when I need to attend to reality whether it be work, school, or friends. Nothing is automatic, so don't lose hope if you can't go cold turkey. Taking a walk and fresh air is always a way to clear my head. Do what you can, stay positive. Take what makes you happy in your mind and bring it to reality. I wish you all the best! Thanks for being honest, we know how you feel and are here to help and encourage you!! 

[Rebecca]

This is exactly how I feel. I can't tell you how good it feels to know someone else feels like I do. When I found this site, I felt like...I don't know how to describe...But it felt good. Good to know and be able to talk to other people who have what I have. Good to be able to have someone who understands, and good to know that I can understand other people as well. 

Stay strong. You can still make your dreams come alive. It is possible to stop if you try. I have done it for a few days...but have gone back to it. But let me tell you, the statisfation, even after a few days of stopping...well, it's amazing.

You can do it. If you want. You can.

Even though your head can be a wonderful place...I feel like it is too wonderful sometimes.