Today wasn't the best. My third day at driver's ed, the last two were fine, nothing big, but today during our thirty minute break I kinda stood alone awkwardly, and I had two so called friends who just passed me up and then I saw them pointing at me and laughing and it made me mad and broke my heart. Eventually I went to sit next to my other friend, which I didn't want to cause I felt like I was annoying her, but I didn't wanna stand alone anymore. So I sat next to her and she didn't seem…

IT's been awhile since I've posted anything on here, partly because I never think of it, and partly because I have trouble finding the motivation to articulate what I'm thinking in a coherent way.

Probably, if I had a good group of close and reliable friends to spend time with in REAL life, even 1 or 3, you probably wouldn't see me on chat even once a month. 

I sort of feel my university life has been a waste. It happened so fast. There I was in high school, unhappy with the…

I havent posted in awhile :P. ive thought of good topics but by the time i get to a computer ive forgotten.

I was thinking alot the otherday and i was thinking "is md a gift?"

i know there was a post before called "gift or curse" and alot of people said its a "curse"

but i was thinking like

we, a selected few of people, have the ability to vividly come up with stories with characters who feel very real and its going on all the time

i think were like..........really…

So I was sitting at the bus stop when something as innocent as a bus advertisement turned the tide of my daydreams. The ad was for Carolina Performing Arts. What particularly caught my interest was the picture of a violinist, who looks startlingly similar to my main daydream character. It was like someone had literally grabbed him out of my head and put him on the side of a bus (with a…

Maybe not everyone's cup of tea but the lyrics are definitely for MDers.

(the song is "Undo Your Mind" by
Eivør)

 
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I'm back. :P

So, basically I just related living with MD to drowning in a deserted ocean with no one there to help. I feel as if I'm drowning in my MD, and everyone in my family doesn't understand the depth and seriousness of my condition. (Not that it's serious, but I do feel like I need help.) I try to address the fact that only medication can stop this, but there isn't any known cure for MD…

So I havent been dd much due to my mind being on my crush. Its way better than laying in bed and dd. I do dd a bit still about him hehe. So I gained the courage to ask him to dance with me at prom and he said yes! I am happy but atthe same ime worried he wasjust being nice. i want to text him or talk to him because I am scared I m a burden on him. It is hard to say sine he is just to kind. What should I do? I want this to work.

I haven't been visiting this site in awhile.  I finally managed to publish my first novel as an ebook.  It is on a site called smashwords.com, you can find it by doing a search on the author name which is "Veradance".  You can download 20% for free so give it a look.  The reason I bring it up was this is really the first productive thing I have done with MD.  I am close to 60 and have lived with this my whole life, I learned to manage it.  I hope to write more and improve with each one.  I…

I can't DD right now. I don't know why. My newest characters just aren't going anywhere. They're getting too generic, too hard to manage, if you know what I mean. I miss the old generation of characters! But I don't know, I used them up or something. I now classify most of them as dead. But then again, I've revived characters before. How about you guys? Do you ever stop DDing with old characters, and slowly, over the years, replace them all with new ones?

  I was doing great daydreaming, and I gave myself a little time to daydream and I couldn't stop for two days. I blew off my family, barely paid attention to my friends on the last days of school, and almost got ran over because I can't get out my stupid little fantasy.

  People say (I have said before) that you should give yourself a set time to daydream but if I do then I can't stop and it's so hard to get back in that motivated mind set for me, once I've…

Didn't do any exercise today, but instead I went shopping and found some nice clothes.

I know I have too many clothes already (whoops...), but I find wearing something new makes me feel better--like I've changed on the inside too somehow, even though I kind of haven't.

When I was trying on the clothes though, there was a voice at the back of my head saying "This next school year will be much better than last year." And I know this isn't the type of thought that…

My DD has stopped for now... Since I have now been running with some friends. Running has tooken DD off my mind and my crush has too. When things are going great I have no desire to DD I just DD here and there about my crush but not about my world which is good but now my happiness is kinda coming undone. I am kinda worried I will be going back to DD. The only reason my happiness is going away is homework stress and my crush haha. So I…

I went for a morning jog today as I had planned to. I only ran for about five minutes, but that's okay: My goal was to get out the front door and do some form of exercise; not break the world record for longest sprint. 

I can't say I've been that productive since then. I've definitely spent less time daydreaming and getting more involved with my friends. I've made plans to see two of my friends next week. And I'm going to try to get in touch with my friend overseas for a skype…

**MAY CAUSE UNWANTED TRIGGERS**

Hi, so I was wondering how many people on here started to daydream or daydream excessively after something tramatic happened to them. I know this can be a rather touchy topic, but I am honestly curious and mean no harm.

I naturally assumed my excessive daydreaming was nothing serious and later on found out it was more of a coping thing for me and my soical anxiety. I…

Lights. Camera. Action.

Huge crowd cheering my name, security guards all around me, people asking me for an autograph or a picture. I go home, and find my best friend there, we soon fall in love, get famous, and make the best selling theater plays and films ever. 

That's one song. I sit down. 

Not real. It's all in your head.

Who cares? Put on another song. Flick. Flick. Flick. People follow…

Unlike most people, I've pretty much pinpointed the whole reason I daydream in the first place. It's because I want to escape reality. I never ever daydream during the summer or when I have free time or when I'm away from people or when I'm on a vacation. I daydream when I can't afford to--when I have a deadline to meet, when I have people to talk to, when I'm right in the middle of my own…

Okay, often I do this thing I sometimes call 'half-daydreaming' or something (I need to figure out how to word half-daydreaming as something that comes to me like my therapist said) and it's when I'm doing something, often on the computer, sometimes while driving etc, where, rather than imagining me in some other place, I'll just be talking as if someone else is there (ah, the number of times I have done things like take two glasses out instead of one is too high to count), and nothing big…

I complain to my therapist sometimes about my daydreaming. How much I do it, how it takes away from reading, writing, more constructive activities, etc. The more stressed out I get, the more I bury myself in my thoughts, even though doing even ONE thing that is productive or relaxing will give me a boost of confidence, or at least clear my head in a proper fashion.  (Managing to do anything in my free time besides daydreaming or vegetating in front of my computer always makes me proud) It…

I've noticed that all of the main characters in my daydreams have some sort of excessive power over something or someone, whether it be through strength or intellect. I wonder what that says about me...?…