I can't do it. I thought I could tell someone I trust, but I can't do it! DDing is SO personal to me that I'm embarressed. I'm worried that they will think I'm sick, in the head. "Why would you fantasize about that?" Well, I don't know why I do it - but I can't stop because it's like I HAVE to. Keeps me sane. End of story.

Hi everyone - I havent been here for a while...moving house is a really big thing. But I am SO happy in my new abode! (:

Anyway, yeah...I am a bit of a fan of Jane Austen and in learning a bit about her life and how she died quite young and without a partner in the end. I wonder if she was truly happy? "Persuasion" was one of the last books she had written and is a favourite of mine. It is an agonising story (like a lot of them I guess) but has a wonderful end. I wonder how the…

I find that when things go wrong, or dramas happen in reality...my DDing is more difficult to get into. And yeah, I am trying to give it up and do it less and less. But sometimes when things get hard (in real life) I feel like I really need my DD. But it's hard to get into it.

I have health issues and had a few dramas this week. Rather not say what. It might set you off!!!! (; DDing that is.

Does anyone else find this? Reality does sometimes knock the DD's out of you. I guess…

Well I had my counselling appointment last night. My counsellor listens really well and tends not to straight-out tell me what she thinks, but just reflects back to me what I've said and helps my thoughts flow. So I can figure things out myself I guess.

I told her of my encounter with Jesus. And she was amazed. She thought she might do a relaxation thing with me, to help me invite Him in. But I already did that myself! She was impressed! (: Anyway, I still believe that He was really…