Operation Take-Back-My-Life: Day Three

[Andrea]

Didn't do any exercise today, but instead I went shopping and found some nice clothes.

I know I have too many clothes already (whoops...), but I find wearing something new makes me feel better--like I've changed on the inside too somehow, even though I kind of haven't.

When I was trying on the clothes though, there was a voice at the back of my head saying "This next school year will be much better than last year." And I know this isn't the type of thought that seems destructive, especially since it's so positive. But this kind of thinking always makes me expect for the best and then I get horribly disappointed and depressed for a long time. Actually, the whole reason why the past year felt like such a piece of crap was because I expected too much in the beginning. I want to train my brain to expect nothing---its the only way to avoid getting all disappointed and upset later on.

I also decided to quit a website I go on frequently that sucks up a lot of my time. It was a tough decision, but ultimately, the less time I spend online the more time I spend interacting with reality.

And that's all for today, I suppose.