Embarrassing Moments....

[Silla Bakht]

I t's too bad when i know that i could do this ,but i couldn't because of my MDD.It generally happens to me in my studies when i tried to put my best and i have almost prepared for class test or paper but at last i couldn't get good result because most of the time at last moments i start day dreaming and then  waste my lots of time in fantasies and when i come in my real life lost so much things....people think i'm dull,  not willing to complete any task and also careful and lazy but it's not the reality ,i always want 'nd try to complete everything but always it does'nt happen.It totally breaks me,i have completely lost control on myself ,my friends always kidding on me because of my absent mind .But they don't know about my sickness.Last week i told one of my bossom friend about it but she didn't completely satisfy me .I want to stop it but i always fail .From the last 5 days i decided to stop it and i succeded but last night i forgot all my promises to myself and daydream atleast 3 hours.I noticed when i stop it and then i again start MDD .It increases alot....But now it's too much i wnt to change this situation and want to be normal .I waish tha i will be normal like other people in this world.........

[PG]

Hi, I can relate to what you've said. And as I think about dd, I realise how much of my life it has taken away. I've been having trouble with my studies too. I, too am done with college, but now that i'm studying for an entrance exam, my mdd has intensified especially with not much else to do to distract me. And my career path is academic, I'll have to do a lot of reading/researching/writing when i do masters (that is if I get into a university).

But its something I'm not willing to give up completely either, I guess that trick is to find the balance between dd and real life...that's something I need to learn.

[Silla Bakht]

thanxzzz my friendzz I feel so good right now ,My college is over but my MDD is in limits.It is so good ,nowadays i'm free but not doing so much Mdd .i am doing so much creative thingzz like writing about my fantasies .I interact alot with my friendzz,doing some home chores and making jewellery for my own,reading books ,listening music, chat with friends,i myself feel so independent.You judge me so right Emilia ,i am the acdemic type of student,always so attentive in class lectures and be on time,my MDD distracts me alot but ,but it opens another door of my mind ,which i call creativitiy,i was not so much creative before MDD,I always so depressed and tired but now with some MDD i think life is change,and it has so much things which we can do.

[SleepingAwake]

Yes it can be very frustrating. I find it very hard to study too. I just cant concentrate.... my thoughts go crazy, start imagining stuff and next thing u know it u studied for about 5 minutes and wondered of for 40, 1 hours 2 hours....

[Jules]

When I have times when I'm really trying to give it up, I try to occupy myself with something else, creative. It's hard though, I know. But you are normal! There are lots of people out there who are like us. But don't forget you're also uniquely precious to this world. Take care. (: