I procrastinate and procrastinate and procrastinate. I have procrastinated my treatment, my action, my decisions and now things have come to a head. My parents want an answer by tomorrow. My landlady told me on Friday she’s kicking me out (I am paying rent on time- but she doesn’t like me, I don’t do the social niceties the other girls tend to do). My mind is a flurry of memories and emotions, most of which I can’t control. This has prevented me from acting on decisions and taking-charge of…

            I am not very good at expressing myself so as usual I found something which reflects my feelings better than me:

From a blog on mental health (specifically schizophrenia and emotional health):

We all get bothered, flustered, disillusioned, or disappointed from time to time (in varying degrees), and it would be dishonest of me to pretend I’m any different. If you can express yourself in a constructive way that doesn’t hurt anyone mentally,…

A lot of people think helping someone is the good thing to do. They are wrong.

Helping someone is the Normal thing to do. When you do something extraordinary, or try to do something beyond your capabilities to help, that's when you could say- Yeah, now I really did something good. This way of thinking should be natural for people.

I'm writing this, because sometimes it's so easy, it takes just a few worlds, just a phone call, and you can instantly make someones day brighter... so…

I'm going to do it. I just know it. I'm trying to stop, but I know that I won't. I want to fix 2 major problems in my life by imagining that they are ok. I know it won't help, but I just wanna feel good, imagine everything working out smoothly. I don't know how to stop myself. Right now I'm waiting for my phone to charge a littlebit so I could start dancing and DD. I should be learning for my Latin language exam or I might not pass it tomorrow. I need to do my English essay and working…

I haven’t seen myself in such a state ever since I discovered this site. Ok I was just at home ALONE playing computer games when I started day dreaming, I tried to stop myself but it was so good, I was rolling in it and convinced myself an hour would not hurt anyone. It was Saturday midday and it went on to Sunday, I had plans with a friend on Sunday could not make it I then switch off my phone and spend my whole day dreaming. Today I feel so exhausted like I was travelling the whole…

I have tried to stop this for years. I can't take it anymore. Sometimes I do good for a few days, in very good cases for weeks, but then I just snap in one moment, I let myself to do it for just few minutes, it feels so good after a break, but then the  minutes become hours and so on ... The worst thing is that a few years back the only reason why I did this was to escape my miserable life, but now a lot has changed. The worst thing now is that when something really good happens in my life I…

I just went through probably a two week period of barely DDing. I'm sure this is absolutely normal for all my life I just never noticed it. Just until months ago when I found this site did I ever begin to notice the cycle or lack thereof of one that can be attached to my DDing. 

I definitely do not DD all the time. I might not even do it daily but I think sometimes I do it by habit fleetingly and so I don't even register that it happens sometimes. I DO think that I usually always DD…

I have cried several times. I feel a great deal of pain. I wrote some poems but they are so bad. The only friend I have is not talking to me for some reason. I don't know what I did because we hadn't spoken in a while. I have "friends" but none of them respond to anything I say. I am so isolated and so alone. My family just dismisses me and doesn't understand me.

It just confirms the vicious cycle for why I DD. It is the only way I have to forget that I am all alone. I just don't…

“When you're attacking, never forget that you're attacking"

My brother reflection about Samurai Champloo philosophy

More than a month ago I fight the daily battle against MD. Like many things in life, end it is just a matter of taking the actual decision to do so. Never imagine you would get out of that circle. Many times I have made decisions to improve my quality of life, and leave certain bad habits or pay more attention at work. But always failed and I felt…

Hi, I go by the name Mai. Like many others, I did not know what I was dealing with is maladaptive daydreaming for a long time.

It started when I was in elementary school. I was a very quiet kid and had few friends. I always felt left out. Even friend weren't really that much of friends. We were just like a group of kids hanging around each other. Even as a quiet child, I craved attention from other children. I started to lie, making up simple stories in my head that I would tell to…

i think this meditation cures mdd ..keep looking whenever yourmind drifts bring it back to what ur eyes see...do it whole day..and u wont b able to dd

Okay so just now I was reading a fanfiction and it really got me wanting to dd a similar scenario to what was happening, like a really intense one and after a bit I randomly got up and went just out the door, a few steps down the hall then wondered what I was doing. I came back, sat down and realised this scenario was intense enough I just really, really needed to pace (or just walk somewhere really briskly). Not around my room, it's not big enough. But hey, Mum's in the living room…

I'm currently in grade 12 and I have to balance my DD life with studying. My mom's telling me to get a job to work part time on the weekends. I've had a job before but it was only in the summer where I didn't have to balance DDing with studying. Although that job was everyday, it was only for a few hours and I didn't have to constantly socialize with coworkers and deal with custormers(I worked with kids). In this current job, I'll be a cashier, I'm not sure how many hours I'll have to work…

I assume that most of people have already been through this.We recognize our condition,then we find this site,then get excited and start struggling to overcome this condition.First two days are usually successful then slowly we drown in DD.

I've been like that,then I started praying  a lot,then I don't daydream as  I used to be.Now I don't find comfort in daydreams as I used to be but the problem is:If I can't find comfort in daydream,what can I do? If I overcome daydreaming, what…

Maladaptive daydreaming is a condition where you’re sitting on a beach, watching the waves, imagining what is under the water’s surface. The world behind you is a desert, and even if it’s not, you can not turn around to look at it because the water is so so pretty. You know you can not breathe underwater, you know you can not go there, because in the moment you leave the land completely you will drown and die, but still… 

You will sit there forever, and it will destroy you, because…

Hello to everyone

I found this site a week ago and now I´m calm and have some time to formulate what I have to say. I do have things to say, because as everyone here I´ve spent time being alone with my MD.

Firstly, I´m really happy to see so many people who can really understand me completely. I read some stories, some discussions, now I have the impression of being a member of an anonymous club. That´s good becase here we have no shame and we can share our thoughts and…