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I will try again

I have tried many times before to just quit it, at least rule out the part where I do it while dancing to songs, because that is the part that eats my time the most. Just hearing a song and starting to DD or starting even without noise whatsoever isn't that bad, I can make myself stop and even if I can't it still isn't as bad as the dancing. Because when I start that I just can't seem to stop. But I must this time. So ... 1. - I have a life that has great people in it, I must keep up with my study, I must find work that I can manage parallel to my studies so I could move out of my parents house(big issues there, don't even want to get into that, lets just say that it really helps to mess things up and make me want to DD more to chear myself up). I need that time I lose DD, I need it NOW!!! 2. - I'm here. I found this website few months ago, that was also a time when I finally realized that others have this issue too, but that time I just decided to quit all by myself, without seeking support here, but I failed.I can't fail this time, I just can't anymore. I already did today, so I'm finally here to seek support by people who get me, because I can't tell even my closest friends about this problem. The funny thing is that they would never get how serious it is, I hide it perfectly.

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Comment by Elīna on November 25, 2013 at 11:35am: Thank you all for the support! It means a world to me to know that I'm not alone in this!

Comment by Robin on November 25, 2013 at 11:23am: Don't be too hard on yourself when you fail! Think of quitting your MDD as a cycle of ups and downs. As long as there's an overall trend of improvement, you're making progress. Don't give up even when you go back to MDD because quitting is extremely hard. But you can do it! We believe in you! :) We're all going through something like what you're going through here.

Comment by Bonnie on November 24, 2013 at 11:26pm: I also need support and help to beat this. I have told my best friend but i do not think she takes me seriously.

Comment by ShellyBelly on November 24, 2013 at 2:34pm: I too am a music pacer. I pace and dance to to music as I DD. Just from being here and going through things, I am coming to the realization that I may never stop. I so want to so badly but I don't know. When ever things are bad, I need something that soothes me and DD does it. I think this is also linked to anxiety so maybe trying another calming method can help. I have tried meditation but I just can't concentrate. Cleaning and reading help but at the same time I still find I DD BUT it may no tbe maladaptive DD because at least I am productive. So try to keep DDing but just try to be more productive and intentional. That does help me feel better about it sometimes. Good luck and take care. :-)